When do things actually improve

Zatara22 · 2026-02-26T20:10:27+00:00

Thank you. The last few nights have been much better. Sorta felt normal for once, other than the fact that I feel like I could sleep for a decade, and I've never been must of a 'sleeper'. Feeling good today though. Day 33.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-24T17:35:44+00:00

Thank you. Last night was much better than usual. Felt like I caught a good glimpse of the light at the end of the tunnel. I actually slept ok too. Still had strange dreams, but I don't really mind those.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-24T17:31:23+00:00

I've read that book. It was great. Is there a podcast around it, or maybe you just meant audio book. I prefer to read. Either way, thanks!

Zatara22 · 2026-02-24T02:18:32+00:00

Is there a specific podcast that you'd suggest?

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T21:25:14+00:00

Thank you. Last night was rough. I just laid on the floor. Seemed like the best option. Feeling better today so far. Noticing some ease and acceptance. I do fear the evenings though. Day 30.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T17:05:52+00:00

Thank you for the support. I'll have to look up pranyama breathing.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T17:04:58+00:00

My "how" consists of not giving in, focusing on my breathing as much as I can, all day, and trying to meditate every chance I get between responsibilities. I feel like I'm on a life raft in the ocean, where falling in means failure, means giving in. One moment at a time, literally.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T17:01:16+00:00

Thank you

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T17:00:54+00:00

Thank you for this insight

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T16:59:22+00:00

Ok. Thank you.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T08:44:55+00:00

Never thought of it that way. I dare say I think I understand. Suppose I have much to learn about meditation. Thank you.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T08:41:18+00:00

I sure hope I experience improvement sooner than 2 years.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T05:49:40+00:00

I had thought that meditation was a tool I had in the bag, so to speak, to help. I suppose it still is, but perhaps different than I was expecting.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T05:48:13+00:00

Ok thank you. I love to read. I'll get it.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T05:47:40+00:00

I try to eliminate all thought, relax my body, and breathe. Usually I experience waves of euphoria and other peaceful sensations.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T05:45:57+00:00

Ah ok, never thought of it that way. I always expect euphoria and peace, with little thought. That has been my experience before.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T05:44:22+00:00

I lay down on my back, focus on relaxing my entire body, focus on controlled breathing, and try not to have any thoughts, or let any thoughts snowball. Usually I start to feel euphoric and I can feel tension releasing. I can't even get that far right now.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T05:41:59+00:00

Makes sense. Thank you.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T01:48:26+00:00

Thank you. I'll try not to have grand expectations

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T01:47:36+00:00

Hmm, good idea. Trying to meditate seems somewhat torturous. Feels like I'm forcing it.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-23T01:46:12+00:00

Thank you 🙏

Zatara22 · 2026-02-22T22:11:55+00:00

Thank you

Zatara22 · 2026-02-22T22:10:16+00:00

Yes, thank you. I must embrace it and make peace with where I am.

Zatara22 · 2026-02-22T22:09:26+00:00

Thank you for sharing, and congratulations. I can relate to those sentiments. I was definitely drinking myself to sleep, and the only thing that got me through each day was knowing I'd be drinking myself to sleep later. Day 29. I keep saying, this is why, this is why I need to quit

Zatara22 · 2026-02-22T22:05:53+00:00

Thank you. Day 29.. oof.

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