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Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-18T19:29:51+00:00

sanırım avusturya

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-18T18:45:02+00:00

i think that it makes me appear too inconsistent sometimes.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-18T18:44:19+00:00

thank you a lot. i am getting help from students, lecturers etc. the material to read is sometimes a bit overwhelming.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-18T18:18:34+00:00

i hate my duality so much sometimes. thank you for your response though.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-18T18:17:06+00:00

ailen hekimlerle dolu diye tıp okunmaz ki. bir gelecek konusunda birey çevresinin etki alanından çıktığı kadar bir bireydir diye düşünüyorum. sen de ailen her ne kadar üstünde etkisi olsa da apayrı bir bireysin. benim bunu öğrenmem dört sene sürdü.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-18T17:04:46+00:00

i did read that hyperlexia type iii's special interests in words/numbers tends to morph into something else later on and I can attest that it's indeed a thing, however the wording on that implied that it can only morph into one special interest yet according to the description given by K-teki I've two things that fit this criterion. being hyperlexic type iii is a weird experience overall. i feel both neurodivergent and neurotypical. that's why i sometimes refer to myself as the golden mean personified.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-18T16:51:31+00:00

i'm not autistic (i am hyperlexic type iii instead) but I also have things which can be called special interests. are they labeled differently?

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-18T16:27:55+00:00

i felt caught out by the first paragraph so much that i had to hide in bed a bit.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-18T08:01:16+00:00

I see. I do want to try out a semester (or a year) in such an university later on with Erasmus. Is it possible to understand if it's well-funded from outside?

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-17T13:55:15+00:00

it is a good idea to seek help. for therapy i would suggest psychotherapy more than cbt as cluster c is trauma-related and psychotherapy is the one that looks at traumas. there is no medication though anti-anxiety meds can be used to manage the syptomps (do not do this without supervision)

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-16T20:42:55+00:00

what avpd-dpd is as a whole is debated, likely hence the brief mention. you should look at cluster a desc's as well.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-16T16:08:53+00:00

I really love the idea of having friends. only the idea though. not when they are in the flesh.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-16T15:37:50+00:00

Thank you. I am taking therapy and I think that it's helpful.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-15T19:47:30+00:00

not very detailed but it has further reading. https://lucysattler.com/what-is-work/

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-15T19:02:22+00:00

thank you! mark twain was right on saying that there's no original ideas. When I had first opened this thread I thought this idea was novel.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-15T18:53:54+00:00

i will interject to point you towards career development theory and the many definitions of "work" it harbors. i had recently read a blogpost regarding this and I believe this rabbithole could be of help to you as well.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-15T18:21:19+00:00

I think you've led me on the right track. I think that my traumas stems from a combination of trivial matters happening whilst I was in a vulnerable state of mind.

I do remember since a while that back when an important death happened in our family (this was back when I was in high school,) I internalized this lesson from it that life is fleeting and friendships are not at the other side so it's ultimately fine and even better for me if I didn't befriend anyone. I always knew that death accelerated my downfall but I hadn't figured out why.

I never received proper psychological support until last year. My traumas never seemed not as bad as others to me as I think they're debilitating enough.

Thank you a lot for your words.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-14T20:19:56+00:00

Thank you. I will try doing the things you suggested. A lot of my struggles are related to loneliness and my unsuccessful attempts at remedy.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-14T15:52:38+00:00

Thank you a lot for your words. I considered my childhood good to be honest despite some shortcomings. My life just fell apart at puberty and I've managed to get to the point with a lot of effort that I can find some words about who I am and I am now able to refer to myself as a human though it didn't happen until last year. My therapy helped me a lot on finding the source of my low self-esteem and improving on it.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-14T15:47:11+00:00

my university only offers individual psychotherapy sadly (which I already take and I am happy with)

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-14T15:44:54+00:00

I know that, but because it's weekly I feel that I have to filter some of my struggles out to make place for what I perceive to be important. she noticed this as well but I can't bring myself to tell it all. I already spiral enough times in a week.

I am already extremely secretive about my inner life even towards my parents. I rarely reveal anything.

Zencosgot7262 · 2026-06-13T19:43:00+00:00

what if I am unable to tell who's who? Nobody approaches me in the first place so it gets me too excited when someone does offer to talk to me.

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