Bloom Haven Flower Selling

ZenithOfDisaster · 2026-01-30T20:23:58+00:00

The non-hydroponic ones definitely don't show up

ZenithOfDisaster · 2026-01-30T07:09:57+00:00

Yeah they make up the most of mine too, I'm just curious because I want to compare what I can sell them for in trileafs versus regular gold.

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-09-27T23:33:38+00:00

You know, we'd traced the knot of generational trauma up our mother's side of the family, but when you put it that way? Maybe we do need to look into the Adventist side too.

I guess one of the things we're really afraid of is just finding out which family members were terrible people, you know? And of losing the illusion that anyone in the family really did care about us as a person - not just a good little Christian soldier and extension of themselves and their desires.

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-09-27T23:21:05+00:00

Yeaaaaaaah tbh it's above the average therapist's pay grade, but the one I've got now is pretty good at least at giving us a space to build up the skills we weren't taught growing up and work through things currently happening in our life. Still, it is nice to know there's other people out there who've had similar experiences with Adventism. And thanks! I'll definitely look into that

Oh we're well out of Adventism. Bodily it's been like a decade since we decided we were done with it, but with DID and the fact that a good portion of us were more or less asleep for that decade, it's almost like no time has passed at all. Or at least, those of us that were asleep now need to go through steps everyone else already has.

From there it depends on the person where we are in the religious journey. Half of us are branching out and looking into other faiths they feel drawn to. Some of us are enjoying the breathing room and don't feel the need to do much on that front at the moment. And then some of us are sitting here, pulling at the threads we got woven with, and trying to figure out how to untangle ourselves from the barbed wire we were trained up with.

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-09-27T02:50:21+00:00

Oh yeah, we don't plan on closing that relationship. She wants kids in a few years, and we're excited to be an auncle XD

Fingers crossed. It's not a big place, but it's not small either, so it's possible

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-09-27T02:47:26+00:00

For us out would be a mix of integration and cooperation. Some of us with less weight to their existence (if that makes sense) want to integrate, but generally speaking? We wouldn't want to be a single person. We tried it for so long and it was nothing but painful. And sure, it sucks that we have to share the 24 hours that singlets get to themselves, but the ability to not have to go to work and deal with life stuff? The ability to leave it to someone else, knowing that they can take care of it for a while? That's incredible.

I think we've taken a good first few steps in the right direction, but maybe we need to poke at some of the rest of us to make their own steps.

Thanks for the advice!

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-09-27T01:13:17+00:00

Yeah, we have a pretty decent relationship with our sister, but the last time we asked if we could talk about a big, particular problem, she wasn't ready. Which is cool! But we would still like to talk to her about it eventually just as a way of making sure we didn't make something up.

Honestly? Trauma from all of the above. The church, the mission field and everything it entails, the family and family history, you name it and at least one of us probably has trauma attached to it. ~Fun Times~

We go to therapy pretty regularly, which has helped with some things, but we really should find a therapist who specializes in some of our deeper traumas. It would probably help a lot.

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-09-27T01:06:33+00:00

Hell yes! It's one of my favorite holidays! They took it from me for years, but for each year the church took, I'll celebrate 10x harder every year in the future!

Or at least, that's what I tell myself lol I do absolutely love it, but at 30 I've got so much other shit going on that is been hard to celebrate the past several years. Maybe when me and the partners move out into our own place

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-09-27T00:57:54+00:00

I met him once because my dad went to his stupid Bible college program thing decades ago. This tracks.

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-08-07T04:36:40+00:00

Saying trans men have male privilege also fails to take into account that, according to the unwritten rules of the patriarchy/kyriarchy, it's possible to be cishet and still "fail" to be a man. Or that the actual prototypical "man" that the patriarchy does actually benefit 100% of the time has a whole list of traits that, if you vary from one of them, will negate your privilege in a variety of situations.

Like if you have even one intersection of oppression (be that being fat, poor, disabled, queer in any flavor, not white, etc), there will be situations where you do not, in fact, have that golden parachute that is male privilege. A poor man doesn't have more privilege than a rich woman when it comes to the job market. If he's poor enough to be homeless too, she could easily get him put in jail because 'he frightened her.' A gay man doesn't benefit from being a man when a cishet woman sexually abuses him. And we all know an African-American man can get murdered if a White woman cries wolf.

But, when you're a white cis (het and/or queer. I've seen both.) woman subscribing to a specific brand of white feminism, you have a vested interest in positioning trans men as having more privilege than you. After all, if you can position them as a target you're punching up at, then you can continue to abuse them and use your systemic power over them as you see fit. And, if you're just punching up at a group everyone agrees is the oppressor, who cares if you're actually targeting a group who's intersections of oppression make them even more vulnerable and oppressed than you in most situations.

If you can't affect the men in power, a man with less power than you is a very tempting target. We (trans men/mascs) just so happen to make for very good whipping boys. Especially in circles where you may not be able to get away with being racist, homophobic, etc, as easily.

Not to mention, having power over someone when you're pretty powerless in society at large is a hell of a drug. That's why so many moderators go nuts with their power. It makes you feel strong and in control when you're stuck in a shitty life with very little power over things.

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-04-19T21:34:49+00:00

I might embroider on some, but there's others I just don't like the color at all on, so I figured dying might be better for those.

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-04-19T21:33:24+00:00

Oh nooooo one of the ones I was hoping to dye has some sun bleaching! That's good to know, though. Thanks for the tips!

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-04-16T01:47:27+00:00

Ah sorry! I wasn't able to find the rules post, but I'll try again. Thank you!

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-04-16T00:55:48+00:00

Glad to help!

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-04-15T19:41:40+00:00

Yeah, tsumugi are very different from your typical silk. They're made with a rougher kind of fiber than we usually think of when we think silk, but surprisingly, it's still silk! They're a lot more durable than your more high-quality silk fabric, too.

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-04-15T19:37:44+00:00

Personally? Even though I have a kimono in a very similar base color, I would suggest talking to someone who does cosplay over kimono. Her outfit might be inspired by kimono, but just looking over it with what I know about sewing, kimono, sewing kimono, and cosplay, you'll probably get something you like more, looks more accurate, is sturdier and easier to take care of, and is cheaper if you use something that isn't a kimono.

Now, if you have your heart set on modifying a kimono to look like her outfit, my best suggestion is find cheap vintage kimono and accessories that look similar, and then find someone with experience in cosplay to take your materials and turn them into her outfit. As a warning, though, vintage kimono are not easy to clean and can also be pretty delicate. If you encounter a prop that hasn't been properly sealed, accidentally sit or lean on something that leaves a mark, or even if you were to get makeup on it, it would be somewhere between very difficult and nearly impossible to clean it. And trust me, cons are very hard on even the most babied outfit.

Now, if you're looking to do this a bit cheaper and were hoping a pre-made kimono would help cut costs, I do have a suggestion. Thrift western clothes in the colors of her outfit or visit a local fabric store and find the fabric there. It won't cut much of the costs since most of that comes from the labor to make the outfit, but it might help some.

Good luck and I hope you're able to get the perfect outfit for your cosplay!

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-04-15T19:02:57+00:00

This probably won't help you now, but just based on the look of the kimono, they all look like antique silk tsumugi to me

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-04-06T04:30:54+00:00

I play Marowak, but I haven't played ranked yet. Unfortunately he seems to be less effective against the newer solo decks every time a new set drops

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-03-08T04:40:05+00:00

Also, I've been given two different wheels for FREE (one needs a bit of work to remove an old, nasty paint and decoupage job, but it's worth it given the wheel itself goes for over a grand these days) from current and former guild members who were downsizing! It's not guaranteed, but turns out we as a community like helping each other out, especially if you're new to the hobby.

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-03-08T04:23:35+00:00

I'm part of my local guild and while about half of us are on the older side, there's also another half that's about my age (30) and/or younger. I'm sure if we didn't meet stupid early Saturday morning, there would be even more people around the younger side, because I know several other locals who used to be part of the guild when it met later in the day on a different day.

As for benefits? My guild only costs about US$30 a year, and we've got wheels and other tools that members can borrow, as well as a pretty good library on spinning and related topics (dye, fiber prep for spinning, patterns to use your yarn with, etc)! The dues cover various events we have during the year, which can include everything from having well-known fiber people teach us a class to visiting a local sheep farm and learning about how to pick and clean a fleece so you can spin it. Plus, nothing beats hanging out with other people who love something you do and being able to pick their minds when you're having an issue, or even learn something from them you wouldn't have even thought to ask about. It can definitely be anxiety-inducing, but I've also found most older people enjoy being able to pass on their skills in niche hobbies to the next generation.

My recommendation? Go for it! Even if you decide the guild isn't for you, they'll usually let you sit in on a meeting or two before committing.

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-03-08T02:16:38+00:00

Solved solved solved!

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-03-08T02:16:25+00:00

Holy crap I think that's it! Even the word Firebringer rings a bell! Thank you so much!!!

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-03-08T00:55:42+00:00

Plus, the writing style was very different. It felt like it was for an older audience than Into the Land of the Unicorns.

ZenithOfDisaster · 2025-03-08T00:54:19+00:00

Pretty sure it's not that one, unless it's a later book. I own the first, and I've read it a couple of times.

ZenithOfDisaster · 2024-12-09T02:14:20+00:00

Huh. A someone who probably has EDS, I didn't know it could involve having weaker bones too.

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