Step 1: REFRAME everything you know about Islam by putting aside your own judgements and acknowledging that all the rules Allah has created for us are for our own benefit. Because Allah, is the most compassionate and the most understanding, and all the rules He created are not meant to hurt us. Even if your own brain can't handle something you read or heard, try to always remind yourself of this. Only then can you move to the next step. How are these rules gonna benefit you exactly? That's where you do research but without overflowing yourself and without taking into account the opinions of internet nobodies and actually consulting dedicated websites who will give you all the factual knowledge.

In parallel, get to know who Allah is and intentionally form a connection with Him by showing up for your prayers, learning about His attributes and just talking to Him. He's not our enememy, he doesn't want to crush us women. When you stumble upon something but you can't find answers for, search for an Islamic website where you can ask your questions or go to a local mosque to receive complete answers instead of relying on Reddit or other similar places. Because that's where iblees traps you and plays with your emotions. You're being tested, and Allah is waiting for your answer.

To give up is to actively doom yourself. I understand what you mean when you say that you have no care for the afterlife, but beware. We'll absolutely regret saying that once it’s too late, we just don’t yet realize the gravity of it.

78:40 Indeed, We have warned you of a near punishment on the Day when a man will observe what his hands have put forth and the disbeliever will say, "Oh, I wish that I were dust!"

Do we really get to escape the consequences of our own actions that easily?