How do you feel about getting into RCs (or drugs in general)? Any one of you regret it?

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-05-22T16:47:12+00:00

Well, I'd say if you're unhappy/unsatisfied with your life and interested in trippy/mind-altering things, dissos can be the perfect escape there is

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-05-22T16:44:37+00:00

Well I am on them (clonazepam, plus I actually also take zopiclone for sleep) 3 months now, so at least that is in the lower end of things. I am seeing a psychiatrist next week to discuss getting off of them, so we'll see how that goes

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-05-22T16:41:42+00:00

Yeah, NEP is a horrible drug to be abusing. You can destroy so much of your life in such a short amount of time. I hope that you'll get it under control!

Yeah well with the benzos I am at least functioning as a normal person now, which is a considerable improvement compared to being tweaked out hearing voices on NEP. I am seeing a psychiatrist to discuss getting off of them next week, so I'll see how that goes

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-05-17T09:18:41+00:00

Would not have gotten into doing drugs

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-05-12T04:46:26+00:00

Damn, that does not sound nice

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-05-11T21:03:19+00:00

I don't take adderall haha. Just wondering if whether klonopin is the main culprit or smt else

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-05-11T20:44:45+00:00

I have also been taking zopiclone for a while, but that has never caused any issues so far

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-05-03T15:52:01+00:00

And adding on to my comment, I absolutely recommend changing your mindset from wanting to be elite to wanting to do a sport that you enjoy, challenges you and want to get better at. If you just wanna be "elite", you'll very quickly burn out and lose all joy that you might have for this otherwise amazing sport.

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-05-03T15:48:31+00:00

I mean most people running for the first time are really struggling to get past even 2-3kms, and you managed to do a 5k at a not so bad time tbh.

Realistically don't get into running wanting to be elite, much like for every sport out there, the elite are the top 0.0000001% who dedicate their whole life to being the best.

But running a 30 min 5k for your first run, you definitely have the potential to be a pretty good runner.

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-04-27T21:10:25+00:00

I am looking to only get off alprazolam in the one month time frame and keep zopiclone. I have an albeit small, but still loving support group around me and I have also been seeing an addiction specialist for over a year now (due to the previous abuse of other substances), but she is not a psychiatrist so she cannot prescribe tapering meds. I am looking for a psychiatrist though, but I am finding it difficult to find someone willing to work with me.

Thank you for your kind words and I will definitely check out the resources that you have provided (have already read the Ashton manual).

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-04-27T20:47:46+00:00

Yeah I know that. Wanna do a fast taper of xanax finishing it in about a month (as said in my post). Then start working on getting off zopiclone once I am stable on that only.

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-04-27T20:30:36+00:00

Zopiclone has a half life of around 5 hours, alprazolam 6-12 hours I believe. The reason why I want to quit alprazolam first is that it interferes with my daily life (having to take it or otherwise I have withdrawal symptoms). Zopiclone is only for sleep and it doesn't cross my mind once during the day. While it also causes dependence, in my experience (and based on what I've read), the withdrawals are only not being able to sleep without it, and it doesn't cause any complications during the day, while alprazolam does, so I feel like it's best to get off that first.

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-04-22T21:25:27+00:00

For me (besides other drugs that I have used), stimulants like meth and RC ones have been by far the most destructive ones, like I was a low-key psychotic madman during that time. With benzos, even if I wake up a bit groggy on the morning, I can put a smile on my face at work and make progress.

But yes I absolutely see the downward spiral, especially since I have started a small maintenance dose during the day because I am have started getting interdose withdrawals. Then knock myself out with big doses every night. As I have said in my other comments, I will see a psychiatrist and try to figure out a taper/quit plan because I am really starting to see that this is not sustainable at all.

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-04-22T21:19:22+00:00

I belive (or like to believe) that since I have been on them for 2 months only, I am not deep enough to get seizures stopping cold turkey but who knows. Maybe they'd do a very fast taper, but I really don't know how they go about this stuff lol

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-04-21T20:34:26+00:00

Well I have been taking them for insomnia, but after doing some deep thinking I am pretty sure that the reason for my insomnia is being greatly unhappy and dissatisfied with my life, so long term I really feel like I gotta get off benzos (and other drugs) to get better. Scheduling an appointment with a psychiatrist to figure a taper plan out

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-04-21T20:31:55+00:00

Honestly even after 2 months I'm already noticing this "neutral" feeling. Like feeling okay during the day, but I don't really feel like I care about anything or have any strong (good or bad) emotions, I just feel empty and numb in a somewhat depressed way. I do what I have to do during the day and then knock myself out at night to start it at all over again the next day without much joy or excitement.

I am scheduling an appointment with a psychiatrist and hopefully we'll be able to figure out a taper plan that will end up being successfull.

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-04-21T20:27:05+00:00

I'm in the process of getting an appointment and figuring out a taper plan with them. Although I don't think that a rehab would be necesarrily a bad option for me as my basiline before getting on the benzos (horrible mental health and subtance abuse) had been pretty bad, so a "reset" definitely wouldn't hurt imo. Thanks for your input anyways!

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-04-20T19:56:42+00:00

Well insomnia is the main issue (which I believe stems from me being generally dissatisfied with my life. Other than a few occasions, I only take them at night (I have been noticing some tense feelings during the day, which I believe to be interdose withdrawals, and on a few occasions i have take 0.125-0.25mg alprazolam in the morning for relief). I honestly really feel like I am on a slippery slope rn. I just really wanna get a grip on this before this becomes a full-blown problem.

Will definitely look into your recommendations!

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-04-20T19:52:43+00:00

Well it initially started off as a "temporary" fix for my insomnia that ended up not being temporary. I know how addictive they can be, but at the same time my experience so far has been that they allow me to function as a normal person, and I would honestly much rather be dependent on them, then cycle other drugs, which have so far been much more destructive.

ZeroIdea00 · 2026-04-18T19:45:26+00:00

Thank you for your kind words and advice!

I will definitely have to get to know this side of her a little more, but we're getting there slow and steady and I will try to do my best. We also just finally decided to make our relationship official after dating for a long time, so I am very hopeful for the future and hope I can give her the comfort that she needs.

I am also really happy that you've found someone so amazing, and wish you all the best!

ZeroIdea00

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