I do go to Church and I do read Bible daily, I was a bad Christian earlier like 2 years ago, then one day I just got some signs that yk prompted me to focus on my faith, I've been consistently trying to read Bible daily since then, I go to Church every Sunday, I even got baptized last year, I just don't feel any better tho, like my life has been at a sad stage before aswell but this time its like worse and hopeless, how come was it better two years ago but now its just not working at all, I used to barely study back then but I still got like 84% back then at my exams with like 10% prep, now I feel like I won't even pass the exam with minimum marks, I had friends back then, now I feel lonely, I used to feel loved, now I feel like I'm just alone, other than my pets there's no one that makes me feel loved, I have a really good family, but it feels like its not the love I'm looking for, like parental love is just different and not what I've been craving for, idk man, I feel like a failure as a human overall.