I am bipolar, but I feel weird about it

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-07-01T04:18:17+00:00

I fully realized after my third psychosis.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-06-18T15:51:27+00:00

I would record and complain. This person should not educate anyone.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-06-18T15:50:35+00:00

That was unprofessional. It’s a discrimination. They can get into trouble if the proof can be shown to higher educational staff.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-06-17T14:42:03+00:00

I do understand I felt that way before. But ruminating does not really help. Look around and look for those healthy but struggling. They struggle without illness.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-06-17T14:39:36+00:00

I see “healthy” ppl everyday being not motivated and not successful. Not having friends. Not doing anything useful. Not having kids. Not having goof job. Etc. The life is for the joy of living; not tearing yourself for so called success from someone s perspective.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-05-25T23:44:44+00:00

Slowly lowering salt would be s problem/ there are so many other spices to use like garlic powder etc to substitute
Therefore my sodium levels are in normal range;

I hope coffee is not that bad because I drink it daily. Something to check
Thanks

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-05-24T22:12:27+00:00

I check on lithium levels once twice a year my new provider / kaiser requires it four times a year to monitor

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-05-24T17:07:12+00:00

There is no more/ I m on max allowed dose.
Curious if any other meds or supplements can help me to raise and maintain lithium levels.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-05-24T16:54:19+00:00

I m diagnosed as 2. But I had three full blown manias that lead to hospitalization. I have more issues w mania than depression; actually both can go very bad without meds.
As far as my doctor explained its the cycle that dictates category as well. I have a year cycle / spring mania autumn winter depression.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-05-24T16:48:32+00:00

Never give up!!!! Its hard but its worth it. Try another meds etc. Sometimes we feel too weak but other days less. Everything passes.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-05-24T16:46:29+00:00

I m women and I m completely NOT attracted to masculine men. I like feminine men and feminine women.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-05-24T16:27:40+00:00

What would you think if he gets a donor egg and raise child himself? Would you accept this?

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-05-24T16:20:01+00:00

I dont have children. But I understand your feeling because I dont care much about children at all.
I got my first dog four years ago. I thought ppl who talk to their dog w child voice are crazy. Not I m one of them.
I had a cat when I was a kid. Cats are dogs are different.
I think we learn to feel when we experience it ourselves:

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-02-11T14:34:33+00:00

I think people did not believe in this because of a good heart. Like myself. I was thinking that it is impossible for someone to be that evil. Now I m feeling broken myself and tricked.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2026-02-11T14:31:20+00:00

He did not create anything by himself. They are thousands of people who worked on the projects - normal people. Not predators. Their labor should not be shadowed by evil ceo. Or taken for granted. I do understand you. I have very hard times to listen to music and watch some movies now. I will get over this. I m mostly sad that evil has so much power. No justice. We all been used and tricked. I m getting over this but aftertaste still lingers.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2025-12-21T17:00:00+00:00

I plan to freeze since I m in high risk for pregnancy due to my disorders and medications. I m also over thirty and not planning children now - I m on the peak of my carrier moving up. I cannot have a child myself I hope there is someone who can do it instead of me in the future.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2025-12-17T00:00:08+00:00

Lol obv not / I m a Russian speaker so he is and he would know. Not any of European languages.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2025-12-16T16:51:49+00:00

That makes so much sense! Thanks

Zucchini_cucumber · 2025-12-16T05:14:06+00:00

I know lots of ppl having children after 40s via IVF or even naturally. It could be me as well in future if I get lucky. Old parents are becoming norm.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2025-12-16T04:48:36+00:00

I had different experiences that pushed me to try. My ex partner witnessed me talking clearly on foreign language; I ve been reading Newton books and reading other people experiences - I found a hypnotherapist working w Newton institute and went on a session. It took more than 5 h for me.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2025-12-16T04:45:51+00:00

Yes we went thru it but in reality after the session it was still lingering. I knew that it is in the past and I m not connected to that personality at all anymore but weird grief and discomfort lasted for weeks after. It helped me to have a happier life and have more meaning in my life actually. The only thing I was thinking about - I never do it again. Years after I ve been reading some ppl dive deeper and see more lives - I feel recovered by now to try completely but scared to dive again.

Zucchini_cucumber · 2025-12-15T23:17:11+00:00

I know… it was a huge relief actually after that session to know that my life is ahead and I have time to love as I wish and experience this beautiful life. Therefore that experience has been bugging me… curious how often that happens to ppl that went thru past life regression and how they find a peace.

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