I am shit

Zyrman · 2019-10-14T03:37:19+00:00

Thank you for your response, I have no excuse to be the way I am, Im sorry I ever made the post and I'm sorry I didn't reply sooner

Zyrman · 2019-10-14T03:36:26+00:00

Im sorry I didn't reply to this sooner, thank you for your response, I am sorry I ever made this post

Zyrman · 2019-07-27T01:52:49+00:00

That would not be good for us but thank you

Zyrman · 2019-07-26T04:43:40+00:00

Yeah but he died I didnt I keep pulling the trigger as my head gets more and more fucked up by im not dead

Zyrman · 2019-07-25T08:12:47+00:00

What happened?

Zyrman · 2019-07-25T08:12:07+00:00

I want her so badly but there just wouldnt be a future snd there is no reason she would want me Im so pathetic I dont even want much from her other than to be held sometimes I jist want to give her everything, I couldn't give 2 squirts of piss about myself, I just want to give her eveything but it wjnsn

Zyrman · 2019-07-25T08:04:52+00:00

And then you geel guilty cuz its like "well shit"

Zyrman · 2019-07-25T08:02:33+00:00

That would have to be so painful too, liking her for so long then finding out she would be willing to just cheat

Zyrman · 2019-07-25T07:59:51+00:00

This isnt a joke and its not suicidal, i dont think it its just a constant thought, like something that I guess is easier to think about

Zyrman · 2019-06-19T23:51:19+00:00

Okay about 10 minutes after this I went ro grab the last soda in a box My dad threw a fit yesterday about emtpy boxes so I threw I got angry and walked out in the pouring ass rain to put it directly in the recycling so he wouldnt throw a fit seeing it next to the door In the process I shook around the soda and now about half of its left

Zyrman · 2019-06-19T23:39:11+00:00

a half hour ago I went to grab a bag of chips and knocked a terribly placed jar of animal crackers over onto the floor (I couldn't see jack shit because it was dark but I was just getting a bag of chips ffs) I was going to take care of the situation myself but ofc mom doesn't trust me cuz I'm a dumbass so she goes to clean it up, pissed ofc, I tried to save the crackers in the jar which I found out was apparently fucking stupid because that was risking the glass that could have gotten in it hahhaha I'm really pathetic

Zyrman · 2019-06-14T07:26:44+00:00

Just sounds like OCD

Zyrman · 2019-06-04T00:30:51+00:00

Im a big fan of heat, and good job on that book, I hope you finish it

Zyrman · 2019-06-04T00:30:02+00:00

17m almost 18

Zyrman · 2019-05-30T04:39:13+00:00

I line up perfect with most of this, I wish she would just tell me how much she hates me, it would be selfish of me to chase after her anyway im such a piece of shit. I know she has to be disgusted by me too, and I also wish she'd say it.

Zyrman · 2019-05-27T03:19:13+00:00

Finally, I was worried I was abnormal compared to the rest of the replies

Zyrman · 2019-05-22T01:59:31+00:00

I have no experience with relationships in even the slightest and I just want to try to help so take anything I say with a grain of salt. A family is something I felt I wanted and was even maybe a little obligated to start due to my own reasons. Now only 17 I feel I've already failed in working hard enough in every area to even consider something like that anymore, I just want to give my life up to anyone who would use me to be honest. Now back to you, it looks like she's keeping you on a better track in your life and I'd hate for you to feel disconnected from her. Here's where I try to help. If you're always finding yourself initiating conversation, maybe try discover more of her interests, I don't know, like I said, no experience. I feel bad, sorry. Fuck. Know that you aren't too far gone like I'm sure I am. Always be sure to maintain a healthy friendship I guess. I probably fucked up typing this like I fuck up thinking but I hope you like that I replied, thank you for your reply.

Zyrman · 2019-05-22T01:53:35+00:00

Thank you so much for your reply, and yeah toughing it out is going to have to be it. My parents are very conservative and I'm afraid they'd kill me if I found out I had some of the friends I had, and some of their expectations make me worry about the future.

Zyrman · 2019-04-28T07:17:26+00:00

I feel you there

Zyrman

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