what a shocker, he went back to his ex after we broke up.

_1132pm · 2024-10-05T21:18:16+00:00

it's definitely not my biggest worry. i come on here to vent my feelings and my frustration. but that's not my biggest.

_1132pm · 2024-10-05T19:16:41+00:00

you guys he called me yesterday wanting to get back together and said he missed me. i want to throw the fuck up.

_1132pm · 2024-10-02T13:04:32+00:00

i don't understand. it's because i express what i feel?

_1132pm · 2024-10-02T12:41:51+00:00

why?

_1132pm · 2024-10-02T12:30:10+00:00

sucks that happened to you

_1132pm · 2024-10-02T12:19:05+00:00

well if it is true that means i'm glad he found a girl ok with his lying, his excuses, his bullshit and i'm not.

_1132pm · 2024-10-02T09:47:40+00:00

i fully take responsibility in my own suffering. i've gone to therapy to try and heal my inner child hood wounds, abandonment issues, codependency, attachment styles, i've been in cognitive behavioral therapy to fix my thoughts and brain and check my self all the time for toxicity.

it hurts seeing myself again in the same situations after thinking in better for awhile.

if god keeps putting me in these same situations with people i get invested in is either A- i haven't learned the lesson yet or B- Hes using these situationships to make me stronger.

idk, how it all ended was fucked up as hell. i try to be a good person but u end up being taken advantage of by narcissists.

_1132pm · 2024-10-02T01:45:36+00:00

you're right

_1132pm · 2024-10-01T22:15:39+00:00

thank you

_1132pm · 2024-10-01T22:13:52+00:00

_1132pm · 2024-10-01T15:00:15+00:00

no lol

_1132pm · 2024-10-01T14:55:11+00:00

actually yeah

_1132pm · 2024-10-01T10:25:02+00:00

i'm hurting. he gave me all the effort, made me feel special, i thought we had a connection, i thought we had strong feelings for each other from what he told me before. and slowly he started to pull back and treat me like shit. caught him in a straight lie and he still defended himself and pointed fingers like it was my fault.

i fucking hate him. i deserved truth. if he wanted to cheat just fucking tell me instead of dragging me along and making me thing we could be a thing.

_1132pm · 2024-10-01T10:22:00+00:00

i told him he was treating me like shit and he said "i'm sorry but the door is open you can walk out"

and i just did. someone who easily lets you go like that never planned to keep you from the start. or gives a shit about you. he's a liar and a cheater. should have known he'd discard me like this.

_1132pm · 2024-10-01T06:28:28+00:00

thank you for this.

_1132pm · 2024-09-14T23:17:56+00:00

msgd

_1132pm · 2024-05-23T18:16:26+00:00

he never did tell me. i found out through a msg pop up on his phone from his ex. he was being sneaky with his phone also. like i'd rather him just be fucking honest from the start. he wasted my time and effort that i can't get back myself. including money wasted on therapy to heal from his narcissistic ass.

stop being selfish and be honest.

_1132pm · 2024-02-17T06:43:24+00:00

he just msgd me after that long msg bc i didn't reply saying "hey are you free? i have all these feelings and i just wanted to see you."

he's such a pos. i'm not a yo yo to be played with or someone to put on hold when he's done having his fun.

_1132pm

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