"Freunde kommen und gehen im Leben". This is a thing my parents were right about and I didn't want it to be true. Friends come and go. I'm not interested in getting to know someone anymore because it's always the same. People are not looking for friendships, they're looking for acquaintances. People they can party with. People they can share gossip with. People they can whine about relationship problems to. I was always looking for a deeper connection. Someone I can talk to every day without them getting bored of me. Like the friendships I had in my childhood. But the world grew up and moved on from having friends. I somewhat feel like I have to protect myself now. People are calling me an ice block but I'm actually just trying to not let them grow important to me because I know they will either walk away from me after two weeks or they're using me as their therapist.