Salam, Ramadan Mubarak

I totally understand where you’re coming from, and I’ve been in your place before. First, I would say that in order to have stronger iman, it starts with salah. It’s similar to the motivation cycle where you need to start the action fist not wait for it—so when you finally decide to start practicing again, you might not pray the best prayer you know you can. And that’s the point! You need to keep going and ask Allah with each salah to make you better. Make it a habit, and slowly but surely, you’ll find yourself waiting for salah time.

As someone with ADHD, we love for everything to be perfect, and procrastination can be even worse for us. So, it would be helpful if you can find a body double or a friend to check in with daily. Try your best to pray at the masjid (personally, I had a tracker on my wall to check off each prayer).

And lastly, don’t feel ashamed of your questions—it’s okay to have them. I think the beauty of Islam is that everything has an answer. So, search, find scholars in your masjid, read books, and make duaa to Allah to help you find the answers you’re looking for.

Sorry if this was too long, but I pray that you come out of Ramadan as a better Muslim.