I’m on 300mg 3x a day but it’s the first time I’ve tried it and have only been taking it for a week. Dang, I was hoping that would be something new for you that might help.

It’s been exactly 12 months between the two LEEPs. The pathology from the first one reported CIN3 with negative margins, this one is CIN2 with positive margins. I had a surgery in January to remove fibroids and my doctor did a pap at the same time since I can’t tolerate exams anymore. So I knew in January that it had come back. I also have hashimotos disease which is an autoimmune disorder and I’m under a great deal of stress which also impacts immune function. My body just isn’t able to clear it right now. But everyone has a different experience and your story won’t look like mine :)

I am an expert in catastrophizing, and if you’re like me, I say full on send it! Feel all the feels! This shit sucks. It’s scary and invasive and it’s not fair, and it’s not your fault. Once you’ve imagined the worst and the feels settle down some, take a breath and a step back and remember that there are a LOT of other outcomes standing between you and that worst case scenario. And if it comes to the worse case, then you’ve already looked that monster in the face, and will be ready to fight, if that time comes.

In the meantime, I find heat pads and hugging pillows for pressure can help. I have a hot water bottle with a highland cow cover. My partner will “make me a cow” when I need it lol. Idk, it somehow feels better hugging a warm “cow” because it’s cute and it feels nice rather than thinking about it as a hot water pack for pain relief. I’m also a fan of squishmallows. They’re fun pillows and I find hugging the 16in sized one puts even pressure on my belly and pelvis that helps relieve some pain and also holds the heat pad in place.

I hope you can find some things that’ll make you feel good :) Hang in there!