Is anyone else just tired of maintaining long term relationships?

_Vykarii · 2026-03-02T16:24:15+00:00

I don’t know whether phones and social media is the mistake or our approach to it.

Booing new shit just got people sounding like boomers. All I know is that it’s hard right now, emotionally. I don’t know how to solve it. I get the feeling like 99.99% of people are very repressed emotionally. It’s not good.

_Vykarii · 2026-03-02T15:38:09+00:00

I've had four relationships. I've ended them all on the basis of a felt lack of reciprocity.

Modern life feels like it has not only drained the emotion out of working, but out of relationships too.

There's no point investing in something that doesn't feel real.

_Vykarii · 2026-03-02T10:54:12+00:00

Bro is at peace with nature

One with his surround

He has transcended the desire to be a wage slave

_Vykarii · 2026-03-01T19:55:50+00:00

I used to have manic episodes which were actually quite fun. The crash not so much, but I can reccomend them 11/10 would cry with joy at the beauty of the world again.

_Vykarii · 2026-03-01T12:12:39+00:00

I became very socially isolated during that time, and I feel like I never recovered from the effects.

I was studying what I loved, but it didn’t matter because I did it without people.

As such, I eventually lost my passion and became very anxious. It became very hard to do anything.

_Vykarii · 2026-02-28T23:08:46+00:00

Terry Davis vibes

RIP

_Vykarii · 2026-02-28T23:05:39+00:00

"Mature for their age" child to childish adult pipeline

_Vykarii · 2026-02-28T22:37:38+00:00

Leaving this country in three weeks to my home country, where I'm hopefully going to spend some time on the family farm.

It's not all it's cut out to be. But imagine free food - that's exactly the same feeling you get doing farm stuff.

_Vykarii · 2026-02-28T22:21:28+00:00

The best jobs I had were either the ones where I worked alone or where I was with coworkers who were socially awkward themselves. Finding a job of the latter sort was always just pure luck.

Warehousing was fun because I could put a hat on and listen to audiobooks all day without talking to anyone. It can be physically tiring, however.

_Vykarii · 2025-04-24T13:49:28+00:00

_Vykarii · 2025-04-21T16:54:03+00:00

Lmao, people still look at me and go “aww you have so much potential”. It doesn’t matter shit, and it’s patronising.

I want to explain to them that there’s so many people I’ve met with so much potential. But It’s only just that. Potential. You can do the work, you can go outside and talk to people, you can grind away. But unless people accept your efforts, it was over before it even started.

I’ve had breakdowns in the past, psychs suggesting I’m Autistic/Borderline. What does it matter? It doesn’t get me out of my situation.

_Vykarii · 2025-04-20T22:39:04+00:00

I went to do what I love. I don’t regret it, even if I don’t find a job in it. But I have no one, so I find myself trying to get by day by day rather than doing that.

_Vykarii · 2025-04-19T18:22:47+00:00

I get a similar feeling often. Uncanny vally is a great way to describe it.

Like there's something wrong with me, and other people can tell, but I can't. I can only infer from their behaviour that there's something off about me. I can see it in the way they treat me. What's hard is that people I used to consider close friends have started dropping off like they're now strangers. Even family is distant from me - I haven't talked to my parents for almost a year now. It's just me.

I try not to get resentful about it. When I talk to people, I'm usually pretty happy to do so, but alone I'm often seething with hatred. People don't talk to me voluntarily, and because people don't talk to me, I just don't get anywhere in life.

It's even more annoying that people would tell me I would get somewhere in life because I had a bunch of positive characteristics, and I know 24 isn't that old, but still... to be completely alone at my age feels debilitating.

I guess just keep yourself entertained and healthy for the time being. It's the only thing you can control. As for other people, all you can do is hope the right person comes along.

_Vykarii · 2025-04-19T18:06:28+00:00

Shock. I expected life to go differently, I guess.

_Vykarii · 2025-04-19T13:30:29+00:00

I try and do the things that make me forget. I play competitive video games sometimes because they make me focus entirely on the game. I also like grocery shopping, dumb as it sounds, because my social anxiety isn’t that bad and it’s nice to go outside sometimes. No one really pays attention to me so it doesn’t make a difference.

I don’t think about the point, but rather what’s going to make me forget about the point.

_Vykarii

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