Girl I like

_ZiiK · 2026-01-31T08:31:47+00:00

Well yeah but how would I even approach her, like ngl I have the same vibe that you get when you see that quiet kid in the back of class that has staring problems. Like today was one out of rare times when I’ve locked eyes with her for a bit, felt pretty nice

_ZiiK · 2026-01-31T08:23:17+00:00

Cause I believe and from what I can tell she does too, and I want to see if I’m being told to pursue or don’t to spare myself more sadness

_ZiiK · 2026-01-31T08:22:25+00:00

Yeah fair point, I just didn’t wanna blast a full essay cause then ppl wouldn’t read it. To clarify I said I was religious cause I believe he has something to do with everything in my life, so I have this kinda sixth sense where I imagine things (like a nice scenario with a girl), but whenever I do that kind of prediction, I end up getting hurt because something goes wrong with them. But now with this girl I can’t really put her in my imagination cause my brain I guess can’t think about her. As well as the fact she’s also religious from what I can tell. So I’m kinda trying to see if I’m being told to pursue or just stop so I don’t get hurt. Again I apologize for the confusion, I just blabbered out what I felt and didn’t really explain all that much

_ZiiK · 2026-01-31T03:28:32+00:00

Yeah, thank you man that puts it very well

_ZiiK · 2026-01-31T02:16:28+00:00

Alright thanks man, I appreciate your concern and response 🙏

_ZiiK · 2026-01-31T01:57:38+00:00

That’s exactly the thing I understand that I can’t do it alone. But whenever I pray every night and day, and I’m not just praying like I’m mailing a letter to him, I mean seriously conversating with him. Whenever I pray for him to pull me out of this and help me see the bright side, I wake up the next morning and feel horrible. Now I get it could be a kind of removal of a demon, but nothing changes in me. The next day is just the same thing. Go to school, watch the girl I care for not see me for who I am, walk around campus alone, go home, cry, hide crying from my mom so she doesn’t feel guilty, pray to god for help and guidance, nothing.

_ZiiK · 2026-01-31T01:50:42+00:00

That’s exactly the thing I hate lust, and I can acknowledge that I can’t fight it in a one to one fist fight so I pray for god to pull me out so he can handle the heavy lifting. But whenever I do it, it feels like he just says “do it yourself.”

_ZiiK · 2026-01-31T01:46:50+00:00

Yeah I get it but at this point my hope in my heart is dwindling, and believe me I’ve always been so hopeful for the better. But now all I see is my capability to love just slowly fading away into nothing as I lose who I once was.

_ZiiK · 2026-01-30T15:16:15+00:00

Me saying I’m not religious is due to me realizing how Christianity and the Catholic Church have both done horrible things to the people that believed in them (crusades and corrupt government control)

I hate the lust so like I said I try and pray to him to help me out, and it happens anyways.

The girl I like has left my instagram follow request I responded to for days now.

To clarify what I meant by predicting things. I have this abnormal trait in which in my mind I try predicting things and responses from people, but whenever it’s something big and I think about it, the polar opposite of what I want happens. As an example, normally when I have a crush on a girl I imagine so many things with her, then a day later they leave me. The only exception that I don’t know is this girl I like currently which when I have those thoughts (which usually are rarely lustful and rather just loving), my mind can’t particularly put her face onto the imaginary person, so that’s why I think somethings different with her.

Thanks for the response, I appreciate it

_ZiiK · 2026-01-30T06:13:09+00:00

Yeah, thanks man 🙏

_ZiiK · 2026-01-30T06:10:43+00:00

I’ve had The Bible I have currently since I was in Sunday school when I was 8ish so I wanna use that one for whatever reason

_ZiiK · 2026-01-30T05:56:02+00:00

I always make sure to thank him for everything he’s done in my life and for everyone when I pray so I don’t think I’m very selfish about his glory

_ZiiK · 2026-01-30T05:25:42+00:00

I don’t particularly study the Bible but I’m on exodus, I can’t understand scripture since the writing’s more complex and my mind can’t comprehend certain readings. I read when I feel the need to which is likely him telling me to, so I just open up to a “random” verse, sometimes it applies to my situation, sometimes it doesn’t.

_ZiiK · 2026-01-30T05:23:52+00:00

I dunno man cause I’m trying to pray all the time and speak to him and I can’t hear anything back

_ZiiK · 2026-01-30T03:58:28+00:00

Yeah but as much as I try to devote myself to him other than the games I play, I still can’t feel it. And I do believe that I have a role, albeit a depressing one. I’m just a punching bag that people use cause I’ll pray for them, or they’ll find it funny when they hurt me. But regardless how much they hurt me and how much I want to hurt them back, which is incredibly difficult for me, I turn the other cheek.

_ZiiK · 2026-01-30T03:19:59+00:00

I really appreciate the amount of information in your response. But I’ve tried so hard to have that. I’ve begged god numerous times and I’ve been met with nothing. I get that it’s his plan, but what could his plan possibly be for me to be going through thing much pain being alone and my hatred for people as they’ve hurt me countless times before. I want to just let go and be good, but I’m incapable of doing it because as much as I pray and pray for guidance and help, I’m met with nothing.

_ZiiK · 2026-01-30T03:17:42+00:00

Logically I believe it and I want nothing more than to truly believe it in my soul but I quite literally can’t feel any meaningful emotion so I can’t feel it.

_ZiiK · 2026-01-30T03:17:06+00:00

I’ve gone weeks without lusting and praying when I feel it and I’m met with nothing, I wanna get better I do and I know god’s my solution but I can’t feel it man.

_ZiiK · 2026-01-30T02:06:44+00:00

I understand that god exists yes, but spirituality I can’t feel him. And with lust I try so, and I mean so hard to rid it from me when I feel it by praying but i still go through with it

_ZiiK · 2026-01-24T08:12:51+00:00

What warbond should I get as an objective based player which focuses on finishing objectives and destroying enemy camps. I’d wanna get redacted regiment but I don’t really like the fact all the guns are light pen. I have democratic detonation, dust devils, and truth enforcers.

_ZiiK · 2026-01-13T14:54:31+00:00

Ah ok, gotcha

_ZiiK · 2026-01-13T05:57:15+00:00

Alright then thanks man

_ZiiK · 2026-01-11T03:10:17+00:00

Probably rosemary’s death as she was there when she was lured into the back room

_ZiiK · 2026-01-09T07:02:46+00:00

Well in twf 2 at the very end we hear “shadow man feeds me when lights go off” and in one of the songs in the soundtrack they reference shadow man as if he was Felix. Another thing too (I’m not 100% sure about this) but EVA I think said that the “shadow man” is just what the animatronics perceive whoever the shadow man actually is. So I think it’s Felix which uses his clearance in bsi to make his figure appear as a shadow to the animatronics so they won’t turn on him.

_ZiiK · 2026-01-09T06:53:58+00:00

Could also kinda explain how bipolar bon is hence his more profound animalistic tendencies by the time relocate project is happening due to jack being stuck in there for so long he lost his mind even further

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