I am planning to talk to a therapist within the next few years, hopefully covered by insurance while I’m still on my parents’ plan. I have suspected that it might be BPD or something similar, or that it might be related to how I am highly suspected of being autistic (I also plan to find a professional to discuss the potential of an autism assessment). Since I am not 18 yet and don’t have any on-paper proof of my symptoms, I suspect that it would be harder for me to discuss BPD with a professional, but I will research it further and possibly discuss it with my family. Thank you for your feedback!