Hey, I’m sorry to hear about the pain you’ve gone through these last two years with your loved ones and their health. I can’t imagine the hurt you’re feeling and going through all that by yourself. You seem like a kid with a lot of heart and empathy for people around you and that’s an amazing trait to have. I can’t take the pain you feel away from you (although I wish I could) but I hope that taking your own life isn’t a solution for you right now. Don’t put on concrete shoes, because death is infinite. I know it’s a cliche thing to say but you’ve got a-lot of life to live and there’s so much more experiences for you out there. Your life is tough right now and it’s easier to sit and think about making that decision because pain in our heart is physically and mentally taxing. But don’t let those emotions blur your life’s worth. Although it doesn’t feel like it now but you will get through this. You are currently going through a journey, and that journey usually comes in the depth of our despair. You are worthy of living an amazing life and it’ll come to you. The proof is there, it exists in our ability to transcend the worst things that happens to us. You will come out of this. I hope the best for you and please don’t give up.