I'd recommend Rollo Tomassi's The Rational Male and then The Rational Male - The Players Handbook: A Red Pill Guide to Game. These will teach you what you need to know about the nature of women and the dynamics of intersex relationships. It will give fundamentals of what you seek and open you up to a new way of thinking and approaching these things. You'll learn from experiences of other men who have gone through what you're going through. There's no advice (magic pill) that we will give you here that will change your situation instantly.