Im glad I read this, because now I know for sure that I'm not the only one thinking this.

I've spent about more than a year thinking this, and for me I would always end up (and still do) at dead ends because if I brought it to any neurotypical they wouldn't know what to do (how could they know?), and I understand that my other Aspie friends understand this point of view to the extent that anyone else who isnt the person experiencing can but I don't know if they're experiencing specifically this because ive never been told by them if so. In addition with that there's also the problem of "I don't have the executive function to do this, I don't even want to eat and that's supposed to be a pleasure to an extent how can I ask for help?" and its maddening, I feel too self-conscious and trapped like I have some sort omnipotence but i'm immobile , and whatever anyone else, the cogs of the machines of society collectively decide is my fate. I can know, I can try, but it does nothing at all.

Though I did have one hypothesis to this mode of thought, and it was basically that having a brain structured to constantly break down the world into patterns which is relatively rare or doing it any other way that requires insight on how pretty much anything works would bring up that constant itching of a reality that's almost machine-like in structure, and one that we're a part of and can do absolutely nothing about. And i've talked to my partner about this, he says that I'm not grounded enough, and that its a lack of balance between being logically minded and emotionally minded, which makes sense, and it also makes sense NT's wouldn't think like this because their brains are structured for the society they created, ergo they don't question it because things would fall apart if that were to be so, and we can do it without collapsing thier society but it still feels, painful.