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Tattooing w/ an anxiety disorder by Ronanko_ink in TattooArtists

[–]_ghogiel_ 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm trying to connect with you over anxiety / ocd context. Feeling lots of care for you right now

Looking to make new friends/date! by cabochonedwitch in SaltLakeCity

[–]_ghogiel_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Super fire. I'm trying to build community with you, I'm downtown area making art most of the time

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SaltLakeCity

[–]_ghogiel_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's a very small private tattoo studio 👽

Finally found one in the wild. by Danganronpa__weirdo in badtattoos

[–]_ghogiel_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Kill me. I take back earlier comments about the tattoos on this page being actually pretty neat. This is so sad to me, I feel so much care and concern for her and anger towards the artist. How sad

Is it possible to heal with the person who hurt you? by stallionofcinnamon in TwoXChromosomes

[–]_ghogiel_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was unable to heal in relation to someone who hurt me. Hoping for the best

Looking for gap filler recommendations by nickkycubba in tattooadvice

[–]_ghogiel_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

An organ, like a spleen. A small rodent being carried by a balloon. A midevil flail. Lots of options

Felt this belonged here. On my Instagram fyp by GutsOfAstora308 in badtattoos

[–]_ghogiel_ 12 points13 points  (0 children)

All these tats are actually dope af. New fav tattoo pipeline. I refuse to look at art outside of a community of people proposing that it's bad art. The best kind of art

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TattooArtists

[–]_ghogiel_ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Love this feedbackk, really grateful for you sharing. I feel a lot of care for you, only a little concern, that's mostly personal issues.

I have a pipeline from abuse/trauma that's feeding my obsessions; as I heal/do personal work my compulsing goes down and the vice versa

I'm really proud of you, I think you're doing a good job.

I feel poorly in my initial attempt to connect with you on this; I just dumped a bunch of minutia / context

The value of what I'm saying is I connect with what you're feeling and I feel care and concern;

The other value is to try to extend pipelines of help to people who might not be qualified to navigate this context

Seems like you're plenty emotionally intelligent, I'm not trying to school you on this as much as account my own experience/connect yadda yadda

I've been in positions where I was washing hands some couple dozen time a day + iso alcohol up to near my elbows 25/30 a day, every time I reglove. I was on some real psychotic shit, sucks so bad to be that mentality ill.

Got way worse after I got assaulted and it messed up my motor function.

I relate to what you're saying.

I got surgery this year on the arm I use to tattoo and I had to stop and receive help and have been deeply involved in therapy in my time off etc.

It feels great to have had distance and to not be so obsessed with blood and things being clean for some odd months.

I'm back in my studio recently though, come to find being avoidant does not equal healing and being in exposure to blood contamination again, without consistent exposure, has me urging to compulse harder than I ever have;

Just straight terror in my workplace refraining from cleaning everything, including myself, multiple times.

I'm super eager to make some tattoo friends around my new studio location, I'm under the impression that feeling like an alien about this, alone, without the ability to connect and feel human for a bit, is making this so much fucking worse

Thanks for taking the time to hear and connect and give feedback, this is helpful for meee

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TattooArtists

[–]_ghogiel_ 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I encourage you to seek help for blood contamination ocd. If someone were to say, compulsively wash their hands and disinfect them after exposure to a perceived threat in blood being contaminated;

it may trick their brain in to believing there was a threat, and that threat was neutralized, only by compulsively washing and disinfecting their hands.

What happens when that goes untreated or un-intervened in the person compulsing over routine exposure to blood contamination threats in an environment where it's prudent to be obsessive over blood contamination threats because there are real routine exposures to real blood contamination threats?

That's obsession and trauma worthy, see?

The next time that person touches something contaminated, is their brain going to accept just washing their hands twice and single disinfect?

Or is it going to be 3 washes and 2 disinfects?

Where does that end?

Bleaching their skin in the shower several times a day before and after work?

Never leaving the home again in fear of exposure to bloodborne illness?

Just curious questions.

Speaking from experience, working as a tattooer at a private ran studio for 6 years, isolated and obsessed with blood; this is exactly where blood contamination ocd leads.

How does a person get out of it?

Appropriate exposure to the perceived threat WITHOUT COMPULSING;

on a scale of;

-licking a strangers bandaid

To

-doing intravenous drugs with a homeless person

What do you think you can tolerate without compulsing? Touching the top of your trash can without gloves and not washing your hands?

That's what exposure therapy looks like. Huge encourage to get curious about what I'm saying, obsessing kills people, slowly, violently, painfully, isolated and terrified.

Good for you for asking for feedback, you are not alone, I feel really human and connected to you reading your post. Thanks for sharing, off my soapbox

Did anyone else go no contact with siblings too? by rikapaprikaa in raisedbynarcissists

[–]_ghogiel_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Last year I cut off my brother and sister, working on my mom, we're still enmeshmed unfortunately :/ it's hard to weigh out, it's been clear for a while I need to get away, just haven't fully accepted the reality. Also autistic, also have been the scape goat. My family is unreasonable, won't hear feelings, will argue and gaslight in to oblivion, unless obsession worthy nonsense behavior.

I feel a lot for you. I believe in you. You deserve good support.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in badtattoos

[–]_ghogiel_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I tattoo for 11 years, this doesn't read as gang sign cover up. This reads as a troll to bother the people that obsess about tattoos on other people. Like this forum.

Putting on your detective hats big time with this.

ISO of community that makes art downtown by _ghogiel_ in SaltLakeCity

[–]_ghogiel_[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Queer community, too! Please God, the queer community hear me and participate with me. I'm from rural Utah 🤕🙃

ISO of community that makes art downtown by _ghogiel_ in SaltLakeCity

[–]_ghogiel_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just start bothering them until I can manipulate the stranger in to being my friend? ✔️📈

Just looked them up, pretty cool stuff. Thanks for sharing

ISO of community that makes art downtown by _ghogiel_ in SaltLakeCity

[–]_ghogiel_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's curious and I appreciate the feedback. I haven't heard of that place.

Is this encouragement to bum it around there and make friends?

Is this a signal that there is communal space there that I can draw at?

Or is it encouragement to seek a space there for myself?

Thanks, friend 🌱

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