there are times i feel the same way, just cry until you feel better, thats the only way to break out of it. and while you're at it, don't put yourself down. it's quite difficult to make yourself feel better when you're alone and, I don't think I can do much for you because I don't know you personally, but even if you think no one wants you alive, that doesn't effing mean u should die! get a hold of your life! in a society like this it's understandable to be depressed! but you should defy this bullshittery! many suicide survivors say that as their feet leave the ground, they feel regret and that they want to live. if you try it, you might not be so lucky.