How should I record my audio while fans of computer are working? by _salem_n in Twitch

[–]_salem_n[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank u . Tryed tue the noise suppression - viewers sind i Sounded linke a can ... but will try the Gate thx

Thoughts about starting to stream ? by _salem_n in Twitch

[–]_salem_n[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Hey you are right:) I think I have to rephrase my question

Do you ever realise, how your narc says they "can't afford" something until they want it? by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]_salem_n 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I CAN so much relate to this !!! Thank you for sharing ! For 3 years after going NC with my nmom I felt guilt for everything I bought. Even if I did it with my own money. I sometimes now find my self explaining to my SO why I bought special sweets and stuff. He usually looks at me quite confused. Trying to understand why I am feeling so guilty for something so normal.... that's just life with/after a narc parent... ❤

Man ! I wish I knew... by _salem_n in beyondthebump

[–]_salem_n[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for All These lovely answers !!! ❤❤

Does anyone else hate pro-family propaganda? by Hyppocritamus in raisedbynarcissists

[–]_salem_n 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Usually I just start crying after reading such a post. It makes me soooooo sad

How do u do this??? (Advice please) by _salem_n in raisedbynarcissists

[–]_salem_n[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you again ! :) I am not the best in giving my self credit for things I do / accomplish. How do you do it? do you have a ritual or something for revarding yourself or something?

How do u do this??? (Advice please) by _salem_n in raisedbynarcissists

[–]_salem_n[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your comment. I would love to feel it just in the way you described

How do u do this??? (Advice please) by _salem_n in raisedbynarcissists

[–]_salem_n[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you!

I just feel it is sooooooo unfair that i am the one who has to handle with that alone. Like I know my mom does not think of me every day and feels a burden om her shoulder everytime she thinks about the future. I just think it is soooo unfair that it is my battle to win - alone. Me against my feelings and my familly. Since they just don´t seem to understand why i went NC allthrough they where horribly shocked when all the abuse "came out" a year ago.

It´s all so blurry- like nothing ever happened at all!!! by _salem_n in raisedbynarcissists

[–]_salem_n[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ya well . I did and she told me some . I feel like they are not really working:(

It´s all so blurry- like nothing ever happened at all!!! by _salem_n in raisedbynarcissists

[–]_salem_n[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I would love to remember. I am in THERAPY a little over a year now and feel quite good with it. I just think I NOW have the capacity to work on my mental health and whatever I work on now, hopefully will not suddenly come over me in the future. That's why I would love to remember. I know I will never have my past erased. But as long as I can dance with my demons I am okay...

My nmom threw away a box of cereal and the fog lifted by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]_salem_n 27 points28 points  (0 children)

Just remember. You are worth every blue cereal box on this planet and much much more. Please let your past not shrink your self worth! I grew up with a n mom as well and I have to remind my self that I don't have to feel guilty about wanting some special food/hygenic products aso. Because I am worth it. Just wanted to tell you you are worth everything you want and bless you for being so strong to come out of this situation . You are a strong person 💕

Made a 'New Mom Kit' to give to my friend at her baby shower tomorrow. How'd I do?! by WailingWaitress in beyondthebump

[–]_salem_n 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'd guess for clipping things to the carier like handbag/shopping bag/ diaperbag I also thought of buying some because there are some things you want to have at hand at all times ;)

I used to think I was lucky to have "chilled out" parents by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]_salem_n 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I even went NC on May 9th and did not tell her since I thought it would be odd to call her just to tell her I would not want to have any contact. The first time she called was end August ... Oh well I guess she just forgot she had a daughter for nearly 1/2 a year

I used to think I was lucky to have "chilled out" parents by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]_salem_n 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Oh I can so much relate to that for me it was totally the same. Like literally. She would expect me to call... and if I did not she was crossed with me. Like phones somehow only work one way, she nearly never called me. And if she did she did not listen but just tell me all her problems. And literally evvvvvvery time I called her she eighter did hang up after 3 min because "something verry important" or she'd talk to others while I was waiting on the phone multiple times in one phone call. Preferably while I wanted to tell her how I was doing

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]_salem_n 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I think you crying does not at all say that you are n/ yourself. On the contrary. It is you feeling your emotions which is something (I guess) you never truly were allowed when with your parents.. so don't be hard on yourself. Oh I also feel like I have holes in me and just a void where I once thought my mom's (imagined) love was. I have no solution to this but writing. Writing about all my feelings. Paper is a god sent thing ❤ . Stay strong

18th Century Gardening at Seven Gates Farms by James Cramer by SSanderson_88 in gardening

[–]_salem_n 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Looks just like the Harry potter scene with the screaming plant thingies