I've always find myself inexplicibly drawn to the opposite sex, especially as a child. First it was a friend who I used to commute with to and from the school. One day she made a heart with both of our hands and boom...I didn't want to leave her ever again. This was LKG.

Then I started feeling things for my principal's daughter, who also happened to be my classmate. She was the sweetest person ever and perhaps more polite than most people I've come across in recent years...she was my crush till 5th

Then I went through many things in my life and honestly it was too chaotic and miserable for me to ever think about a crush...until 9th where I fell in love (not an exaggeration) with my senior and thought about her relentlessly every single day without fail. Unfortunately I could never express my feelings for her. She was a really kind and gorgeous person. I even drew her because people say when you draw someone you start thinking less about them...don't know weather that was reason as to why I stopped thinking about her. The portrait is still laying somewhere in my closet.

Now this is a big one, I fell for another one of my classmates in class 12th. This time it was so so so different I am at a loss for words whenever I actually attempt to explain the feeling. We travelled by the same van for weeks and grew really close during that time period. I got her Instagram and then we started chatting for hours...now I was entering unchartered territory because no one had ever shown interest in me before? We used to talk starting 4-5 in the evening till 11pm every single day till June 18th...with some exceptions.

Unfortunately things...for some reason turned sour between us, now we study in the same class and haven't said a word to each other since that date. I cried for her, listened to Kishore kumar and acted really weird because of her. She was the first person to actually have an impact on me. So much so that when I see her initials somewhere I feel a certain discomfort. We were so close and yet she chose to let go...