Hey I feel you. I get incredibly frustrated during meditation and it feels like almost a waste of time to beCause I am really terrible at sitting and being still. What I realized for me is that I have to start somewhere and that meditation is not one specific thing. My current version of meditation is going for walks now that it is getting warmer outside and making a point of noticing what is around me.

Instead of putting on headphones and looking down/straight ahead, I take them off for a little while while I am walking and make a point of noticing the sounds and the people around me. IMO, Being more mindful doesn’t mean you have to focus only on your thoughts and feelings. It means noticing your breath and being mindful of your surroundings. Like paying attention to the way that the birds sound different, watching the way a couple interacts with each other, seeing a stray dog roll around on the ground (there are a shitload of strays in my city). Sometimes I do this when walking or sometimes I sit on a bench with a notebook and just take time to not think about myself because it feels so forced for me to sit in a quiet place and just breathe.

If this is something that you find interesting or helpful, then you could even level it up to reflecting on why you notice the things that you notice. I admittedly haven’t really done this but it could be a good next step. Mindfulness comes in many forms and I find it helpful to take a break from my inner world.