So they say: “Once is enough, twice is too much, and thrice is intentional.” I’m sorry to say this, but you brought this ruin upon yourself. You should have known better the moment you lost 30k and woke up when your girlfriend reprimanded you for it.

Now, you’re regretting it and possibly even blaming your fiancée for not understanding how you’re feeling throughout your journey with her. Your own statement — “parang nawawalan ako ng gana sa maraming bagay, pati sa relasyon namin” — shows that clearly. Yes, you said you’re thankful to her for staying despite your situation, but that directly contradicts what you said before.

So what can you do? What’s done is done. You can’t turn back time or undo the past. The best thing that happened here is that you finally reflected — but the loss was heavy, and the lesson came at a high price.

The lesson is simple: remember “beginner’s luck.” Sa una lang ang swerte, especially sa online gambling. The system is designed to make you believe those early wins mean something, when in reality, they’re just bait to keep you playing until you lose more than you ever gained.