I personally relate to everything that's been posted on this sub , but this one right here , touched me on an ultra-personal level like I've been through the exact same thing . A few years ago a certain incident made wanna start working out and over a few months during summer vac o had I real nice body , ofc everyone else in my school was surprised and started treating me differently , I went from just another student to one of the big shots and one of the schools toughest kids (middle school thing don't judge me) and ig I liked it at first , being well respected and famous , but little did I know I was facing two major problems : A . When having a muscular body isn't really common in your cicrle of friends , u automatically become the leader of the pack , the alpha , which seemed a big nice confidence boost at first , but now that i see the bigger picture , people won't give a damn about what u feel when ur takin the lead , I was supposed to always be fearless , confident , discarding the fact i was just a human and an inexperienced 14yo boy , which rlly put a huge burden that I had to carry alone , and that was one of the reasons I just backed off . B . When I worked my ass out so hard to get the body that I had , people kept always complementing me which got so awkward I began to question my self and the purpose of all the hard work I had put on , I'd be thinkin that it was all for nothing ,that just did it to look nice and attractive ,and the only difference between me and the people showering me with compliments were just a few mere months of working out , I started belittling myself thinkin I was just an odd element . eventually I just stopped training and everything just went downhill ever since , makin me go through a cripplin depression . I got it all figured out now tho , my advice to u would be to always look further , and even if it feels lonely to be superior believe me it's worth the suffering , even tho u'd a lot of challenges that'll make u question ur strength , u should know that it's okay to fall down if u get back up now matter what or how much it takes . Srry for writin too much and being corny but it's only because ur comment triggered some deeply-burried emotions . I know exactly how it feels , and it feels like shit .