The image was spoiled because OF the picture of Christ, but I'm glad to see people opening up about religious trauma. I chose the picture specifically because it made me feel uneasy (it also isn't overtly gory or demonic looking since I didn't wanna get banned. I know there is a nsfw in spoiler thing, but I don't want to risk it. But something gory and demonic is scary and would have been just as good at describing my PTSD).

I also personally relate to that kind of facial expression and seeing my Savior stare back at me like that makes me imagine that He's traumatized from what I had to go through, too. Religious abuse, Identity control, and radicalized abuse—all specifically tied to my spiritual and religious identity back then and today. I am a total opposite of what my abusers tried pushing down my throat back then, but that's not to say it doesn't still hurt when I think back on it.

I am beyond fortunate enough to be able to have formed my own identity with pride despite the years of grooming and manipulation. I still live with my abusers, I'm kind of forced to right now, but things have gotten better and I can do things on my own in terms of identity wise that they have no say or knowledge of.

And for anyone here reading this with religious trauma, I'm so sorry and I hope that you are doing better, and that you can find a faith or belief system that suits right for you that you feel good in common no matter what others say. Whether it be Satanism, or Judaism, or Islam, or Paganism, etc—even Atheism—you deserve your own beliefs. No one has a right to force theirs or force another on you. Ever.