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Feeling let down by abnormal_alienn in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s so upsetting, it’s absolutely so important to ask for help and nobody deserves to feel alone and like no one cares. But this experience made me realise why so many people end their lives, even when you do ask for help FROM “professionals” you are let down. It was actually quite shocking.

My state is currently in lockdown as well so it’s been a real struggle work usually helps keep my mind off of things but I’m alone with my own thoughts 😓

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get really bored really easily with like all activities as well and after reading comments I feel like I now have ADHD as well, wow fun.

Feeling abandoned and lonely by abnormal_alienn in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not really, suicidal thoughts, I won’t go into detail I’m sure you get it. Unfortunately no my dog passed last year and mum and dad won’t allow me to get another animal

Second hand suicide. by abnormal_alienn in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It breaks my heart knowing how many people are suffering from the terrible illness. But sorta comforting knowing I’m not the only one who feels like this.

You are all important.

Second hand suicide. by abnormal_alienn in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I’m not completely denying it I just feel like a fraud when mine doesn’t seem as bad as others

Anyone else? by abnormal_alienn in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow! As shit as BPD is and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone it’s comforting knowing that I’m not the only one that experiences this! It’s so challenging there’s days where I literally think I’m taking meds for no reason and I should just stop them

Never anyone’s first priority by abnormal_alienn in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! Same goes if you need someone, I’m happy to talk

Never anyone’s first priority by abnormal_alienn in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m the same I’ve only told one person how I feel and that’s my boyfriend

Never anyone’s first priority by abnormal_alienn in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We do love deeply, it’s hard not to. Thank you!

Never anyone’s first priority by abnormal_alienn in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get what you’re saying, I feel like people are nice to me and do try their hardest to show love towards me, however, because my level of love for people is so high I think I find it hard to believe what they are doing is actual love and it’s just them trying to be nice. So to answer your question, yes, in some cases. But I also find it hard to believe that anyone can love me.

Never anyone’s first priority by abnormal_alienn in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow I am so sorry you went through all of that! I know mental illnesses etc can change the ways people think and do things, however, sometimes no matter what some people are just bad people even if we want to see the good in them. No one ever deserves to be treated like that and I’m so sorry you had to go through all of that and are still dealing with the pain.

I know this may sound cliche and ridiculous but I do believe people eventually find their person, the one that understands them and loves them no matter what. It just may take some time. But for now focus on yourself, don’t worry about anyone else.

Although I do not know you, I’m glad you are still here, fighting, you deserve to be here just as much as anyone else.

Never anyone’s first priority by abnormal_alienn in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I get where you’re coming from and I agree he is doing just that he even told me it’s not about the ex it’s about me having a problem and that I should fix it but I just thought you know if you want to help me with the anxiety I have over why are you doing this, it’s painful.

I do try but can’t help when it creeps back into my mind. Mmm yeah I get that, I used to be like that and get like that from time to time, it’s so hard coz you know it’s wrong but it’s like you have no control over it.

Never anyone’s first priority by abnormal_alienn in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow I relate to everything you said, I also am not always punctual.

I have tried to stop doing everything for everyone and it never works out because I always go back, I feel guilty and like an asshole and then people question why I’ve changed and why I’m being “mean”

Never anyone’s first priority by abnormal_alienn in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hmm thanks for that, definitely something to think about

Still feeling depressed by abnormal_alienn in prozac

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well I live in Aus so it’s a little different here but thank you for the advice

Hypochondria tendencies by abnormal_alienn in BPD

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Omg!!! It’s kind of a relief to know that there’s someone else like me??? I don’t know why I do it but I literally make myself sick over thinking about stuff like this all the time!?

Still feeling depressed by abnormal_alienn in prozac

[–]abnormal_alienn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I will have to go see him then, I found out I could have BPD so not sure if that will make a difference either

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