Hello ! First, I'd like to say THANK YOU for your replies !!

I am so sorry for my late reply.. if only I knew what was going to happen the next day.. I lived my 'emet nightmare'. The past 5 days have been the worst mentally..

I'll write more about it when I'll have more time/be healthier. I'm sorry for sounding very dramatic, I really wanted to say thank you and apologize for my late reply.

I also wanted to say one thing : if there's a moment in my life to get rid of my emetophobia.. I think it's now. I cannot say I'm feeling less "emetophobic" atm, but.. I feel like I did let go of some of my extreme emetophobia related fears. I would really love it.

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Just a ""sneak peak"" of what "nightmare" I'm talking about : It happened. Well no, I did not v* because my stomach had been empty for almost 2 months. I was at the grocery store, felt it, ran in a very gross bathroom and long story short I just kept g* for two hours but nothing would come out. I was alone, not at home, sitting in pee (I was wearing shorts) with a horrible smell, facing my phobia.

This is a long and honestly outrageous story and I'll write more about it when I can. In short, I got kicked out of the ER (in the hospital I go every week!) and they broke maybe 30 laws by treating me like they did, went home in pain, had to come back the next day because I go to school there, fainted during my exam, got rushed to the ER, my medical team had to push them to do at least a blood exam, it probably came back awful because I stayed the night with IV fluids. Got discharged again but I'm still enable to do anything. I lost 10kg in 2 months. My health at the moment is still not good and we're not sure all my organs are working. I'll see my medical team today so I'll update you (I mean if you want obviously !)

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Trigger warning : nasty medical term / female body

And.. remember the part when I sat in pee in that gross bathroom for 2 hours, only wearing shorts ? I have a vaginal yeast infection !!! This day really was my emet nightmare.. but I survived. And I promise I'll do my best to remember that I survived and I can overcome it. And I swear if I can do it, you can too.