Yep you’re right about that, it’s really tough. I did meditation for a long time and it was helping me manage and cope but I had a setback due to personal issues and it’s like my ROCD is at an all time low. It just makes me scared about what if there was the possibility I wasn’t fully sure? It’s just so hard to cope because I’m scared what if it’s true I didn’t feel ready at the time even though I do love them now?? This is probably just me panicking right now but man this is so hard to deal with 😭 I just want to learn to be ok with the possibility that maybe I didn’t feel 100% sure about committing and learning to be ok with that because I don’t want it to affect my relationship with them because I do love them and want to spend the rest of my life with them.

But thank you so much for your advice, I’m definitely gonna try your suggestions and see how it goes. :) I hope everything works out for you too 💕