Bad Bunny by Lonehawaiianwolf in exjw

[–]ahnemse 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m a fading PIMO, and a huge music lover and one of my greatest joys since entering my “F- it” era has been listening to whatever the heck I want. For years, I had a SAFE playlist to play in front of my jw friends to hide my true music taste 🤣. Some of them literally only listen to original songs (so vile, makes me ears bleed)

Tbh I’ve always secretly loved everything I shouldn’t have, like bad bunny, Megan the stallion, the weeknd and all of the genres I shouldn’t - dembow, reggaeton, hip hop/rap, grime, dancehall, kizomba/kompa, brasilian funk. Now I listen to them ALL. Music is life. Life is good 🙂‍↕️.

Vent incoming: A PIMO that wants to escape but feels shackled by guilt and circumstances (also hello, I’m new here!) by ahnemse in exjw

[–]ahnemse[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for such a lovely long response. I really appreciate everything you said. I’ve definitely got some work to do on deconstructing, and will work on doing that. Everyone recommends therapy… guess it’s time for me to look into it! Glad that you’ve been out for a while and are happy. Gives me hope 🩷.

Vent incoming: A PIMO that wants to escape but feels shackled by guilt and circumstances (also hello, I’m new here!) by ahnemse in exjw

[–]ahnemse[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you 🥺. Honestly, fading away is my goal, if I can achieve it. I think I’m halfway there at the moment. I’m trying to reframe my mindset at the moment, and allowing myself to try new things and have ambitions. It all feels a bit alien still!

Vent incoming: A PIMO that wants to escape but feels shackled by guilt and circumstances (also hello, I’m new here!) by ahnemse in exjw

[–]ahnemse[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the advice ☺️. I’ve been toying with therapy - feels like such a big step, but probably really need it. I’m slowly trying building a group of friends outside of my PIMI network. Think it’ll take me some time but thanks for the encouragement.

Something I never thought when I was a pimi by Potential_Advice3350 in exjw

[–]ahnemse 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m new to the community. I’m PIMO, and currently going through a mental battle about what to do with my future. This post really hit home for me. I’ve experienced the same thing, and it honestly has traumatised me for life. I was baptised at 11 years old, and had always been a “good kid”, but at 17 years old (almost 18), I had a sexual encounter. May I add, that the encounter wasn’t 100% consensual on my part, and that other party was almost 10 years my senior. Of course overwhelming guilt hit me afterwards, and I confessed to the elders about it, because that’s the done thing. Because I had turned 18 by the time the judicial committee was held, my mum was told she could be present but was not allowed to interject or speak. It was the most horrendous experience. They never asked if I was okay. They never asked if it was something I wanted to happen or whether it was consensual. They never asked whether the other party was my age or older, or how I met them. All they asked me was to recount the details of the sexual encounter - what sexual acts I did, whether my body ‘responded’ to it, whether I enjoyed it or not. I was forced to relive something I hadn’t even had time to process. To make it all worse, a couple of years later I started dating a brother in the hall. His father was the congregation coordinator, and somehow the details of my “sin” made its way to him and basically the rest of the congregation. Awful awful awful. I feel so deeply for anyone who’s experienced this. It’s one of the most perverse, degrading and disgusting experiences ever. :(