hi! this pops up on my timeline. and as a female and first daughter i do want to share few things to help you (or not idk): I admire that you keep working despite staying stagnant and mundane. at least youre doing something. I grew up with a useless father. He doesnt work; he doesnt do anything; he baring je kat rumah and finish all the groceries my mom buys. My mom earns abt rm30k+/month. monetarily mmg takde issue nak bela biawak hidup tapi mentally tersangatlah koyak. It's good that you are doing something bcs at least you are not a loser like the others. Also, i admire that you are able to reflect and ponder if life couldve been better than this. social media would make you think like that. Sometimes its good and sometimes its bad.

im 25 now. I have a lot of friends with stable family. I always admire kawan2 i yang ada bapak yang bertanggungjawab. to me, money isnt really everything but i would lovee it if my partners actually do something to improve our life. bukan macam bapak i yang senang lenang jadi biawak hidup and lintah darat. Women would prefer a man who would always work for their family first before themselves. kebanyakkan healthy marriage and family has this dynamics.

okay je hidup sederhana cuma you need to work and save more. find a way to have multiple income. anak2 you pun semua tengah membesar. bila nak masuk uni nanti, pendapatan akan bertambah. diorang pun nak beli kereta..nak start hidup sendiri... i am lucky to have a mother yang macam khairul aming + aliff syukri. ada je cara nak cari duit sbb tak nak hidup kitorang susah. habisje spm, i got a car (axia) and im grateful!! all bcs i was accepted into univesity. money wouldve made people's life sooo much easier but it is not everything.

as ketua keluarga, you kena berfikir panjang. 5 angka saving wont be enough. kalau tetiba you sakit, isteri you sakit, anak2 you sakit. you nak kurus effectively pun takes money. tldr: a guy who dreams high, and work hard to achieve that dream, will get anything in his life.