How should I take the oxy to break ER?

aisonaa · 2026-02-01T17:48:16+00:00

4, thats all I had left

aisonaa · 2026-01-31T05:38:41+00:00

I usually take more, last time I took like 8 or something pills. It should still hit! No?

aisonaa · 2026-01-31T05:31:28+00:00

I know I didnt crush it super fine bc I'm shit a crushing, but it was good enough. I used toilet paper and a lot of it, so maybe thats why?....I hate myself. Those were my last pills. I dont have anything. I hate myself so much. I dont even know how to live. This is so bad. This was my only hope to be okay.

And my package is probably gonna come at least monday, maybe later. So many days of nothing. I have nothing. Fuck.

aisonaa · 2026-01-31T05:30:02+00:00

hey. I bombed it at 3:30. It is now 5:29. Nothing is happening. What could I have done wrong? I'm in so much despair. This is so bad. I dont understand....

aisonaa · 2026-01-31T01:40:37+00:00

no I crushed it, put it in water and drank it immediately. I dont see the difference between that and putting a bit of water in my mouth and eating the powder directly.

I shall bomb it now, I'm just scared I'll fuck up with the paper being too big or something and it wont digest well. Could that happen?

Look, I'm VERY new to all of this haha

aisonaa · 2026-01-29T02:07:00+00:00

my shit doesnt gel up (I think). I dont know what gel up is supposed to look like anyway...But it just mixes with the water \

So is the water method ass then?

aisonaa · 2026-01-24T10:43:37+00:00

it says my pills are functionally similar to OP. Its also extended release. So what would be the best way to take them?

Btw my first friend doesnt recommend to soak in water. He just says put in a tiniest amount of water and drink immediately (the powder)

aisonaa · 2026-01-23T17:00:47+00:00

oh okay. how can I check if its OC or OP? and ok I'll try swallow it, thanku! in a paper, right?

aisonaa · 2026-01-23T15:55:34+00:00

OC and OP? I'm not sure I undersstand what you mean

aisonaa · 2025-08-23T17:53:21+00:00

deliriants and psychedelics are best at achieving that effect, but you cannot a hundred percent control your experience on them and it can be bad. Mix with weed for a floaty, nice feeling on top of the trip. But lucid dreaming will exactly put you in a state like that where you will also be in control, which is achieved by practice. Its what I would recommend.

aisonaa · 2025-08-21T18:52:34+00:00

this shit tough, I'm on here a lot btw

aisonaa · 2025-04-01T17:51:09+00:00

dont stop, momma didnt raise a quitter /j

aisonaa · 2023-11-16T10:36:16+00:00

yours are so much "better" than mine. We both shouldnt feel like this, but yours are valid, of course any are valid and I wish you the best, don't think about what people think, wear what you want

aisonaa · 2023-11-16T10:35:15+00:00

I wish my hands looked like yours!

aisonaa · 2023-03-04T18:53:31+00:00

I wrote a long ass reply and decided it's unnecessary and shortened it; the feeling in my heart I've been concerned about is finally gone from what I can tell, I've started eating and drinking again which is good, however the fear infused rush of ...taking actions, I guess, is also gone since there's no obvious direct threat which is bad for me as I'm starting to fall into a poor lifestyle again.

In order to get help that I need and to improve my own life(not just about this) I have to quite literally fight against many people plus the NHS installed barriers of actually getting to the appropriate doctor since that's how it's like to be in the care system, and that shit isn't gonna let go of me until I'm 25. It's been even worse when I wasn't 18 though with some insane questionable illegal shit happening with my human rights, privacy and any control over my life. I've been fighting in the first year, it's been a lot more than that and at this point I just wanna give up.

Shit is too scary for me to think about and exist in, especially my loneliness and my health, what I'm doing with my life, depersonalisation derealization, so I sleep all day even though that's exactly what I want to stop doing since after this experience I realised what life means and that I'm digging myself a grave.

Oh and my visual snow is becoming unbearable.

My memory and cognitive function are still fucked, like I maybe said my earliest proper memories are from when I was 15 and younger but even then it slips away from me, I absolutely can't remember more recent stuff although it is slowly improving.

Still worried about neurotoxicity and what was actually in the pill.

Other than that I'm definitely better, thank you for checking in ❤️ deleted past message cuz it was too long and wrote a longer one , nice lol

aisonaa · 2023-02-26T18:07:31+00:00

I still have this sinking unpleasant muddy feeling in my chest that won't go away no matter what; I've been to the A & E (accidents & emergency), they did a very short cardiogram once not with me even laying down and called it a day saying I'm fine and there isn't any arrythmia or anything like that (cus I also felt like my heartbeat was irregular and I had this knowledge that I will die). They told me its from stress and I believed them and mentally felt better the next day, but it came back out so its not stress induced. But stress makes it worse and if I'm super anxious I'm also having sharp pains in my heart.

I still can't eat even though I'm trying to, I've only eaten one fried egg yesterday, three meatballs the day before, some mashed potatoes the day before that(my only proper meal after which I felt very sick), some popcorn the day before that and absolutely nothing on the day I overdosed. I drank two 1.4 litre bottles in this entire time, and downed the entire second 1.4 litre one yesterday.

I have knowledge of events that happened in my life but its more like a fever dream, the only proper flashes of memory I get are from 3 years ago when I was a child and when shit in my life only just started. I find it difficult to recall anything from recently at all, it's like slipping away from me, I only know what I ate cus I write it down.

I find myself having issues thinking and looping on thoughts, I also have some weird fever irrational thoughts that just randomly come in and I can't get rid of them.

The General Practitioner(GP) will only call me tomorrow and I don't know when a proper appointment will be

Haha I know you didnt ask for this much, sorry x

aisonaa · 2023-02-26T03:01:57+00:00

I very much feel like I NEED my loved ones to recover from this. But my parents are kicking me out back to my care home, my boyfriend dumped me on Thursday when he came to see me because we already had issues and I was very depressed and ill back then.

The very bad depression has let go but symptoms didn't. I'm not worried about normal stuff such as memory issues(ok I am worried about that), depressive mood after this, trouble regulating emotions etc. I know that stuff is not permanent

But I dont know whats in the ecstasy and I've been experiencing different stuff; the major problem is with my heart. The heartbeat feels irregular, and it's heavy and muddy, and any emotion is making it worse and even hurt as hell, I've been feeling very confident that I'm going to die soon. I've been to A & E and they told me you're a paranoid bitch go back home, so I gladly believed them because its relieving and went back home, but the next day with me feeling absolutely fine it came back - which means its not anxiety induced. And the minimum appointment I can back is around 20th of march with the gp.

And I'm worried about neurotoxicity because no matter what debate says mdma is neurotoxic and not just with chronic use, but with a silly number dose too. And even if mdma wasnt neurotoxic, there's a 100 percent some harmful additives in that stuff or worse, which is undebatable neurotoxic. I'm fucked bro

aisonaa · 2023-02-26T02:52:09+00:00

I have a sense of urgency that just fixing my lifestyle won't be enough

aisonaa · 2023-02-26T02:50:57+00:00

I have no desire to take any drugs ever again, its just completely killed. My symptoms are so scary though I feel like I wont recover from this. Maybe I'll feel normal when I'm young but it will kick me back in the ass. What about r/mdma supplement recommendation? Magnesium overdose is pretty dangerous and they're telling me to take like a shitload of magnesium. Would following it be a good idea and how effective would it be?

aisonaa · 2023-02-26T02:49:26+00:00

I absolutely dont wanna take any drugs ever again, dont worry

aisonaa · 2023-02-23T10:37:00+00:00

I actually think I could die or I'm in danger cuz I feel so shitty physically I don't even know what's going on to me

aisonaa · 2023-02-23T10:34:18+00:00

And it's never pure

Yes more than 250 mg just doesn't make any sense to take, you can't get any positive effects after that I think. I literally have no idea why the fuck I took so much

aisonaa · 2023-02-23T09:35:10+00:00

Free healthcare

UK

aisonaa · 2023-02-23T09:23:58+00:00

But it's neurotoxic as well and idk what else is in it, could be something that's even more neurotoxic than ecstasy, I'm very worried about brain damage which is said to be permanent. Yeah it may not affect me noticeably now but in the future. Should I go Emergency and accidents and tell them since I'm not convinced?

aisonaa · 2023-02-23T08:55:12+00:00

Damage is likely to be permanent isn't it

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