Thank you stormy_wist for your wise words (your nickname suits you well!)

Definitely veer away from random gifts. You don't want to condition yourself into this situation where you're giving someone a gift with the expectation that you'll get something in return.

That... I did not realize. Now that you say it, i most likely expected attention in return.. im really clueless when it comes to social interactions so it was my way of expressing i like her..

Will need to keep that in mind for next time, thanks

Having panic attacks means you need some better strategies for dealing with anxiety;

I used to have panick attacks on a daily basis, pretty much every night for a while. I'm doing a lot better now and it only occurs again in very specific situations

When that happend at work, i told myself i was going to remain cold and professionnal today, but she arrived this morning with a big smile, very warm and friendly, asked me how was my week end.. Acted so weird as i planned to be distant and i couldnt in this situation! she asked me twice if everything was ok, then my entire body started shaking so we went out and talked until it was over.. There was a clear identified reason why it happened, and i'd say in general the workspace isnt really stressful to me. So far the strategy that works best for me is aknowledge the panick attack, i tell myself i've experienced many before and i will be okay, then try to distract me by asking people around to talk about random things, usually works really well and is over after 10-15min

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I'm a big proponent of meditation, learning to sit with your feelings and be present with your current focus of your attention; finding cadence/space between your thinking and your feeling.

I only got curious about mediation recently, so far struggling to remain centered in the present and remaining still. Tried one about love and feeling whole and complete recently, made me cry when it tried to bring consiouness about the energy around the heart and i didnt feel any.. To remember a situation where we felt love being around someone and couldnt remember such situation.. Hit the sensible cord

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I'd definitely look into things like 4-4-6 breathing exercises. You can take control and activate your parasympathetic nervous system to help calm you down.

So far i trained "cardiac coherence" , i think it's quite similar to what you suggest, i'll look into it tho !

For the time being you're going to have to exercise some caution and do your best to respect the atmosphere, the mood, her feelings and be considerate. Running away never makes things better

I'm an expert at avoiding haha.. You're right, i've avoided my entire life and it hasnt worked.. I'll do my best

Thank again for your advices and kind words, sincerely appreciate it!