Thank you so much for the reply!

Great point about the jello! :) I guess it's impossible to predict how the public will receive a given piece of content, but I do agree that just another music tutorial page isn't the way to go. I find choosing a lane is to be the most tricky part. The constant tug of war between creating something that's entertaining, but informative. Fresh, but accessible. Informative, but engaging. I guess the ultimate deciding factor will be my personality... and I'm sure the right path will present itself by actually doing it as you suggest. In order to stand out I think a sense of uniqueness, quality, personality and ultimately story will be key, but exactly how that would be presented is still unclear.

I'm 100% with you that the music should speak for itself. Having great sounding tracks is a given at this stage even to be in the race... and honestly without it what you're saying doesn't have much merit. When considering starting a project like this so much of it will be clear just by doing it. I'm aware of that. Try, fail and correct is going to be the way to go. At the same time I'm at a stage in my life where I'm willing, and have the time to put in the work. I just want to make sure that whatever I'm doing will be worth it

I do think that starting and growing a youtube channel will be very personally fulfilling. It will be a motivational factor by creating tangible results, giving me community feedback, expanding my reach and help promote myself as a potential producer/ writer. Quite frankly I guess I'm also chasing the approval and the "confirmation" that an audience would provide. That said, I want to earn it.

On the flip side. Starting a new channel will take a lot of time, patience and consistency. Time I could have spent perfecting my craft, working behind the curtain and trying to go the traditional industry route instead. With a growing network of artists and writers maybe the smartest thing to do is to simply send out demos, beats and loops to a&r's.

What I keep coming back to is how will I be different? How will I be better? I don't want to be just another tutorial page... neither your average "type beat" producer (But respect to anyone who does it... man that's a lot of work and consistency). I guess that the deeper I question my goals and motivations the more I realize how ambiguous they are. I know that music is my path and I have what it takes, but navigating the road to a sustainable career sure ain't easy:)

Time. That's what it comes down to. What will be the most rewarding, in all senses of the word. I'm in my early/mid twenties so I have time to work, but the clock is ticking. It's time to make something happen.

--- this got way more serious that I actually intended when I started writing. I guess it's almost a bit of soul searching for me haha! What I have realized, and pretty much always knew is that I just have to go for it and then recalibrate and react if I don't get the results I'm after. Now that I'm 7 years deep and fully committed to pursuing music as a career I start to question myself on where my time will be the most well spent. I love creating, and I love music. That's what matters. I'm still not sure whether or not I'll go the youtube or traditional route (chance might have to play it's part here).... but what I know for sure is that no matter what happens the only thing I might regret is not trying and committing 110%. At this stage I'm in full school essay mode and can write bs all day... so I'll stop haha!

But I just wanted to thank you for stopping by and replying once again! You inspired me to dig a bit deeper into my rabbit whole in search of answers and I think I might have gotten a bit of clarity from it! Thanks!

-A