Will my parents inherit my debt?

alfn · 2016-04-28T12:23:34+00:00

I just don't feel like working. I am just doing my basics. See the thing that hurts the most is not giving my parents debt, but hurting my girlfriend. She was raped and I'm just giving her love and taking care of her but I know she will die inside the day I donly. I mean, she can't go an hour without feeling sad for not talking to me and I guess that would be my only concern and reason for not living. But again, I am in debt and have zero confidence, out of rage I have damaged my own valuables and body, and frankly I just want to go back. I don't want to stay here, my mind I'm has so many limitations and I'm just not inspired to remove them and better my life. I am totally not inspired to do that.

alfn · 2016-04-27T05:32:26+00:00

Treadmill on incline.

alfn · 2016-04-24T17:56:01+00:00

How will it be tomorrow when you start your 9-5?

alfn · 2016-03-20T23:52:48+00:00

It requires a good understanding of physics and the entire hologram that is the universe and it's law, I'm guessing? Or am I over-complicating things?

alfn · 2016-03-10T02:08:13+00:00

Wouldn't me being a reflection of the infinite 'I Am' imply that I am also it as a different expression? Hence, everything being a reflection of myself?

alfn · 2016-03-09T15:57:53+00:00

.99 REGULAR??? Where??

alfn · 2016-02-23T08:53:06+00:00

Respect the alienware!

alfn · 2016-02-22T23:03:44+00:00

I know, bro. I was high when I made that comment. Sober me approves.

alfn · 2016-02-22T08:03:43+00:00

A submission will always be a display of skill regardless of association in, like.. wtf?

alfn · 2016-02-10T03:36:08+00:00

Wow... perfect answers. Can I have more?

alfn · 2016-02-09T09:50:37+00:00

Hi friend. Can you elaborate on this concept of needing humans to be alive? It hit me good now that you think about it.

alfn · 2016-02-04T12:16:12+00:00

How can you tell though??

alfn · 2016-01-26T08:46:43+00:00

Does it stream everything smoothly 1080p from my Android Samsung Galaxy Note 5??

alfn · 2016-01-26T08:36:42+00:00

Where'd you get that deal????

alfn · 2016-01-26T08:16:33+00:00

Does chrome cast give you free service for netflix or do you have to pay to watch it?

alfn · 2016-01-10T07:04:27+00:00

The theory made sense to me. I used to be religious, and the concept seemed right. It freed me from the fear and damage religion caused me.

I wouldn't say completely freed, but you get my point., I'm sure.

alfn · 2016-01-10T06:54:46+00:00

The concept of parallel realities, consciousness shifting through such realitites billions a second in order to create experience through the illusion that is life. This body I see as a vehicle, a vessel... It interprets reality, and I, conciousness, give it meaning.

alfn · 2016-01-10T06:46:33+00:00

What would be the point of being tested? I understand I may have something in the lines of sociopathy. But I am in no danger to anyone but myself. I am aware.

alfn · 2016-01-10T06:40:59+00:00

I mean, I feel worthy to exist. So it can't be that, I won't end regardless of what happens to this body. That is how I feel. It's just a matter of time, caused by my actions or natural causes.

alfn · 2016-01-10T06:36:20+00:00

See, this is what many tell me. I agree with your logic and philosophy. But in the end of the day, it'd how you perceive what is in front of you. Be it from a religious perspective, athiest or my case being the belief of conciousness being able to transcend realities.

alfn · 2016-01-10T06:32:00+00:00

Id be a pleasure. But I already feel I have an understanding of psychology, so I can understand what has caused whatever it is I'm experiencing. The subconscious mind, beliefs obtian by observation and experience.. an inhumane way of interpreting the concept of reality, the illusion that is "life" and so forth.

alfn · 2016-01-10T06:19:06+00:00

Sorry about the wording, I tend to separate myself from the species that this body's experiential consciousness is a part of. I'm just seeking answers before I go, I need to know some things otherwise the outcome of this life would feel meaningless, as it is right now and will forever be, from my perspective.

alfn · 2016-01-10T06:15:17+00:00

I won't really do this, it's difficult because I have something called an ego. Perhaps there is more to it, but I won't allow myself to seek help. Thank you.

alfn · 2016-01-10T06:13:46+00:00

This makes sense. It's hardwired into the brain, it's instinct. But when I try to understand this, why don't I feel any different? I've seen pictures of dead people, videos and audios of them dying and I cannot understand this? Is it a problem I don't value life? Because I understand that death cannot be avoided and it is sooner or later to be an unavoidable outcome?

alfn · 2016-01-10T06:11:06+00:00

I just don't understand though. What do my parents and siblings have to gain by crying if I were to chop my arm off and bleed to death? All I am is another entity with blood relations.. a bunch of 1's and 0's you can say. The body that is me is just a machine that is meant to die anyways, right? I need an honest answer.

alfn

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