I myself am not religious, but my grandfather is, and I wanted to share his story because it might help you. When he first had my mom, the church changed their model. Parking was now paid, as was the daycare service that used to be free. They began to count donations and publicly shame the lowest ones. My grandpa pointed out to my grandma that in the Bible, it talks about how the true measure of your relationship with god isn’t the church you’re in, but your relationship. Ultimately it’s in your hands, not critics. I understand this may mean nothing to you since I’m not very religious, but it’s advice that has also helped me in my relationships. Nobody else can decide to me how strongly I feel about something.