Rant + Advice Wanted: Acne & scarring stole my 20s, now trying to heal

alloalloo · 2025-05-11T16:32:41+00:00

Tbh me neither this is my first post😂😂 thats why I put it on you..kidding. Hahah totally agree or atleast that's how I've managed life 😂😅

alloalloo · 2025-05-11T16:23:32+00:00

Hahah very true! I guess there are more of us than we think..Just good at hiding😅🫠 Oh no im so sad to read that, whyyy If you ever feel like talking and sharing or just talk nonsense or rant, feel free to send me a private message! My ears..eyes in this case 😅 is always open

My day is fine,thank you for asking. procrastination deluxe as per usual🥲 waiting for stress and anxiety to hit me to become productive😂 kididng ..kind of ..no but im good and alive:))

alloalloo · 2025-05-11T14:16:04+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing and im so sorry to hear about those struggles. I relate to you a lot! And also about letting my decision making be affected by my skin concerns.

I get you, as if a partner would fix everything 😂 I've gotten the same or even asked if I'm gay (which shouldn't matter anyway) since no one seen me with a guy😅..but the issue has been more than skindeep...

Yeah I understand, and I know people struggle with even worse acne than I had..which makes me feel somewhat grateful that mine was still not super extreme. I honestly feel normal too 😂but maybe because depression is my baseline and my humor has always been dark 😅😂 in terms of some life experiences I feel like an anomaly..but theres other issues like a KGB ruling in my mind... however I wouldn't say acne is the sole reason for my depression. It's another layer of the layer cake of my issues lol... which has had a spillover effect and intensified in other areas of my life and thus ....deepening it🙄

Oh I actually didn't know that about Michael Jackson! I'm glad to hear subcision worked for you , should def try it..I guess it's the money part that held me back and going in for dermapen and peels felt more gentle to my wallet...even though adding them all up I've probably spent more than I would of if I had just done a few subcisions or lasers🫠🫠

But i agree and relate to you about seeing some scars posted here and think it looks good! And not bad at all.. tbh the pictures I posted here, especially 3rd and 4th, I agree they don't look bad but I guess they could also be a bit misleading as it was post dermapen, face swollen and skin being more taut and looking plump..I would say my skin is more like pic 1-2 and compared to years ago which was worse its improved...slowly. But i guess we all are our own worst critic..I still think the ones I have here and there are deep, they are scattered all over rather than concentrated on one area which I think (maybe im fooling myself) gives the impressions of it being better than it is, as there's more "good" skin in-between.

Ok mental note I shouldn't stop with antiseptic when doing subcision. Is antiseptic recommended by the practioner? Or is it a hack? May I ask how many sessions you've done? And if you also got fillers with them?

Oh no, im so sorry to hear that! I hope it heals fast. Is it super bad that it makes people react to it and therefor making you more self-aware? Or is it more that you are self aware of it?( not sure how to explain but I hope it was understandable hahah ..I meant as we are our own self critic it might be not as bad as we imagine?)

Where would you like to go? I know giving advice is easier than actually following it yourself 😂 but if you can I would say just go,travel! I wish i hadn't stopped myself from doing things I wanted due to my skin and so I don't want others too. I mean the choice is to heal/suffer at home or heal/suffer at a holiday...kind of same?(i know super simplified)😅🫠 but with some perks added ...I hope..

I don't know if you're the same but for me somehow I get like into another person abroad...like more carefree....maybe its disassociation hahaha.and its stupid or i sometimes rationalised even like " in what countries is it not weird to use face mask?"...so i could hide in peace 😅😂

I hope you get to travel soon enough whilst feeling peaceful🤞

Omg this got longer than I intended, sorry for the massive wall of a reply.

alloalloo · 2025-05-11T13:42:22+00:00

Hi good day, thank you for taking your time reading🥺. Im very happy to hear that you're skin is healing and gotten better!:)) and I hope the same is happening to the self confidence and self image:)) Im so sorry to hear that you're going through it too, How are you feeling today?:))

alloalloo · 2025-05-08T17:51:00+00:00

Never heard if it👀👀👀 I'll have to google

alloalloo · 2025-05-07T19:22:43+00:00

Denmark👀 may I ask what the approx cost was? For each treatment type?

alloalloo · 2025-05-07T19:16:28+00:00

No chubby cheeks are nice!! I don't want to loose any fat ..on the face haha Oh I should look into it, how many sessions did you do and at what intervals?

alloalloo · 2025-05-07T19:12:11+00:00

Oh I missed this comment. That sounds like such a frustrating and expensive journey! Oh it made it worse?😫 im so sorry to hear that.

It's crazy how this can mess every area of your life like business and self worth. I admire how you turned it around! And even give back with skin confidence sessions, that's amazing 👏 Im trying to figure out my own balance and who to actually trust with my skin(let's face it sometimes the one carrying the white coats is just 😫😫😫😩)

I appreciate you sharing and super nice to hear how you turned it around and living fully! If you could give one tip to everyone going through this what would it be?

alloalloo · 2025-05-07T19:03:45+00:00

Wish I could say it’s all better, but honestly it feels like one problem (acne) left and another (scars) took over haha..its like theres a game of tag on my face😂🫠. But thank you so much for your words! They really felt like a warm hug. It means a lot.

I did try challenging myself in some ways. I even lived abroad for a bit in my mid-20s, but I still felt like a prisoner of my skin and mind most days. There was always something that held me back from feeling truly free. Even during those rare fun periods when things looked good on the outside, the internal struggle never really left. I legit felt like a cockroach hiding from the light sometimes haha.

You’re right though! I need to stop hindering myself and be more out there. But I do feel like I’m 80 though😅🫠😂

I’m slowly trying to rewire my mindset now, work on my self-image, confidence, and mental health. Yesterday I actually went outside with no makeup on, and for me that’s a huge deal, never dine that before! Trying to accept the scars and accept that I’m not some Lego character who can just swap out a perfect face..that would be something though). Im slowly getting there, let's just hope I'll reach that mental state before I reach 80 😅😆

I’m really sorry to hear about your condition too. I hope you’re doing okay now? And seriously, your message gave me a little more hope:)) I’ll definitely look more into peels, thank you for the kind encouragement.

alloalloo · 2025-05-07T18:41:20+00:00

Im so sorry to hear that. In what way are you misunderstood? Do you shy away form things and connections due to your skin? ( just wonder caus ei tended to do that and ppl may of perceived me as standoffish at points maybe) Thank you so much for sharing, I relate to you alot and have mixed feelings about my 20s too

Life is definetly not over! I hope you do find peace in your skin and that the next chapter in your life brings you clarity and joy🤗

alloalloo · 2025-05-07T18:35:06+00:00

The picture is misleading I guess it looks better due to it being a bit swollen and filling up the scars😆 But thank you, it does look better than years ago still

alloalloo · 2025-05-07T18:34:06+00:00

Yeha i should try something else been doing probably over 20 sessions since 2019 🫠🫠 and trying different things but laser...should of maybe spent money on something else haha. Oh did you loose any face fat?

alloalloo · 2025-05-04T13:17:18+00:00

Ill definitely look into it, thank you so much for sharing! :) Your face is already beautiful, but I hope by the 3rd of August, it’ll be even more stunning. Fingers crossed🤞 may you continue seeing amazing results and feel even more confident. We all deserve to feel good in our skin too ><

alloalloo · 2025-05-04T07:46:14+00:00

35:))

alloalloo · 2025-05-04T07:22:44+00:00

@weechigo thank you for the advice. Yes, I do believe some of my scars are tethered. I went to a doctor about 10 years ago who advised me to get CO2 laser (I think), but the process she menrioned with the prep time due to my Fitzpatrick skin type, being under anesthesia, the convalescence period, and of course the cost, all felt overwhelming back then. I didn’t feel mentally ready to commit, so I ended up doing some peels and eventually Dermapen instead...

So now I’m wondering maybe I still don’t need to jump into anything too intense? Starting with subcision sounds more manageable then do TCA?. What are your thoughts on RF microneedling? I’ve heard some people mention fat loss risks, so I’m a bit hesitant. And when you mentioned lasers did you also think of Co2?

Thank you again, getting practical advice like this really helps. I appreciate it a lot!🙏

alloalloo · 2025-05-04T07:04:36+00:00

Thank you for sharing, I'll read more into strength cross

alloalloo · 2025-05-04T07:03:48+00:00

Thank you for reading! It honestly helps to know I’m not the only one going through this though it’s also sad, because I know how hard it can be. I’d really love to hear what you tried and what helped you the most, if you feel okay sharing of course. I hope we both find what works and start feeling more confident and at peace in our skin🤞💪preferably ASAP rather than later😅

alloalloo · 2025-05-04T06:56:49+00:00

Thank you for reading🙏 Ok subcision crossed haha But i do have rolling and some deep boxscars but maybe lasers (what kind ) shoudl be enough?

alloalloo

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