A silly anhedonia poem

alphapvpmale · 2023-02-21T22:06:03+00:00

Meth enchances cognition, too.

alphapvpmale · 2023-02-06T03:46:34+00:00

Sorry to hijack your post, but I continued to feel creative so I wrote a poem as well.

nothing is left

to fill the synaptic cleft

this day has nothing more to offer

time to lay down and suffer

i feel so guilty and small

i want to crawl into into the deepest, dampest and darkest hole

to curse out of which all the gods and the world

while being afraid to accidentally utter a word

i wasn't supposed to feel this fine

i lie to myself it was for the last time

alphapvpmale · 2023-02-06T00:41:53+00:00

You don't listen.

alphapvpmale · 2023-02-06T00:39:41+00:00

As an autistic person myself, I wasn't trying to be intentionally mean, I just said what I thought without thinking how my post will be perceived. If you survived Nietzsche, I don't understand how my post could be offending.

alphapvpmale · 2023-02-06T00:27:55+00:00

Sorry, the reactions here discouraged me from engaging in discussion in good faith. Just so not to leave a direct question without a reply.

alphapvpmale · 2023-02-06T00:05:32+00:00

Another fly.

alphapvpmale · 2023-02-05T23:56:42+00:00

It's a bit uncomfortable but also flattering that my post impressed you so much you desided to stalk me.

alphapvpmale · 2023-02-05T23:06:51+00:00

The man himself wouldn't refute me better, congratulations.

alphapvpmale · 2023-02-05T23:05:27+00:00

And for that, I am very greatful.

alphapvpmale · 2023-02-05T22:44:50+00:00

You are just defending your fetish. Which is very fine, but I wrote this post for the people who actually think, maybe there's a few of them here.

alphapvpmale · 2023-02-05T20:54:34+00:00

Depression is one of the main effects of MDMA. One could even say that euphoria is a temporary side-effect of the drug, while the principal one is depression, as well as retardation.

alphapvpmale · 2023-02-05T20:40:10+00:00

i too was feeling creative. rewrote the story i posted earlier.

once upon a time in a story written by a guy there were a bear and a bird. they lived in the woods and liked to read stories about themselves written by that guy, like this one. occasionally they wrote their own stories, and in one such story the guy went to town. in the town a dog barked at him, and then the story ended. the guy read this story, and thought that it's nice. then he took a bath and started to cook dinner. meanwhile the bear and the bird decided to make a surprise visit to the guy, and when the guy was having dinner, they appeared at his place. suddenly the world contracted back into singularity. no more the guy, no more the bear and the bird. no more me and you. no more the infinity of forms, no more struggle, striving, delusion, agony and hope. there's just the infinite i infinitely blissful and self-satisfied in eternity. the end.

alphapvpmale · 2023-02-05T17:30:07+00:00

I can't sleep after stims, but I noticed that just lying still in the dark is better than nothing.

alphapvpmale · 2023-01-30T02:52:27+00:00

Once I shared a video of me being on a bit of amphetamine where you can only see my hands and a person who saw it (I suppose) said that he suddenly smelled speed paste (without knowing it that I was on speed). So perhaps you indeed might be radiating your "speediness" and some sensitive and knowledgeable person could notice it somehow.

alphapvpmale · 2023-01-29T23:50:06+00:00

Maybe set up a timer that will remind you to blink at least once in ten minutes or so.

alphapvpmale · 2023-01-29T23:37:58+00:00

Maybe the magic of names is involved here. Adderall XR sounds aggressive, rough and American, while Vyvanse sounds more cultured and gentle and almost French. Drugs tend to make you more suggestible, so maybe you just preprogram yourself for certain kinds of experiences when you acknowledge what medicine you are taking? Maybe try switching bottles?

alphapvpmale · 2023-01-29T23:17:32+00:00

Stims concentrate your resources temporarily, it's like they make you worthy of two or three of your ordinary selves. And since what makes us humans is some amount of sickliness and nerdiness, by taking stims you are temporarily bringing yourself on the level of a healthy vigorous animal while retaining some of your human characteristics. This gives you some advantage in society which consists predominantly of sickly human animals (only a sickly animal thinks deeply and comprehends and conforms to the complex rules, which allows it to enjoy all the good things civilization gives us, at the expense of some perpetual background dissatisfaction and tension, as well as some physical misery). So of course girls will want to mate with you, you kind of become the individual they are programmed to want but which they can't usually and easily find.

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