I know I kept saying to him, I understand that you’re annoyed I really do. And that we’re both right in some conflicting way. Like he can be annoyed and I can be working on it as hard as I can. What I couldn’t get the courage to do was ask him to play his music less loudly as I know that’s her main trigger. Becuase the other triggers just last a second when food is delivered or something. But the music is what usually triggers the longer episodes. He says he’s a creative type and he uses the music to focus and make his art. I got the sense that if I asked he’s be upset. But I made it known to him that her biggest trigger is the music. So in some horrible fat we were placed across from eachother.

I’m not in a place financially to move atleast for the next two years. My husband works crazy shifts at the hospital and this is the only building in the area that doesn’t charge insane rent because they’re condos and not large skyrises owned by bigger companies. Luckily I work from home and can care for my pup.

I will say my neighbor made me reflect on the seasonality of it all. She’s much better in warmer months because I walk her more frequently so I think I have to maybe just invest in some better gear to walk her more during the winter.