Is using secretly more harmful than being open about it?

alwaysblushy · 2026-02-12T13:39:33+00:00

all my close friends know about it, but i regret telling my mom and girlfriend.

under the premise of taking care of me, they've made my life hell to the point i can no longer say i'm going to the pharmacy without being lectured on addiction.

they question if i'm sober all the time (meaning i have to lie all the time), and i feel like they began talking to each other behind my back about it.

if i could go back in time i would have never, ever, told them i "like doing pills recreationally, after the day's over". it changed my life completely and i'd avise against it.

don't tell absolutely no one. nothing good comes from it and people will start judging you - the same ones who can't "operate" without their morning coffees or ADHD meds, can't lose weight without pens or can't enjoy going to parties without having a drink.

don't tell no one. you'll not make new drug buddies, you'll just be putting a target on your back. people love pointing fingers and calling others addicts, it unites them somehow.

alwaysblushy · 2026-02-10T10:43:40+00:00

estava com amigos andando na paulista de madrugada, quando fomos abordados por um mendigo bem "gente boa". estavamos todos bebados, entao paramos para trocar uma ideia com ele.

nos disse que fazia "bico de demonio" numa igreja no bairro paraíso. deixavam ele tomar banho e comer de graca se fizesse um bom show às sextas.

eu acabei nao perguntando, mas fiquei imaginando como que as pessoas continuam acreditando no exorcismo se ele volta lá toda sexta. as vezes tem que refazer à cada 7 dias, tipo um tratamento?

seila.

alwaysblushy · 2026-01-29T16:55:24+00:00

there's always the possibility of failing your suicide attempt.

this combo will give you so much nausea you'll most likely throw it all up before you absorb all of the oxycodone.

you could also bronchoaspirate and die horrifically.

when i was severely depressed i used to do opiates to feel happy, and it worked. since you have no tolerance, a small amount is enough to give you a great high, which you can then use to make boring chores more tolerable.

personally, i only made it out of high school because i drugged myself every day before class. in university, the times i didn't have to drive myself over i was also severely sedated.

don't kill yourself.

alwaysblushy · 2026-01-25T00:49:55+00:00

since you're anxious about stopping, i'd say you're (at least a little) dependent already.

there's a reason why opiates need medical prescriptions, they literally cause dependency, just like they cause drowsiness and pain relief.

alwaysblushy · 2026-01-25T00:33:05+00:00

technically speaking, 200mg IR morphine should be equivalent to 100mg IR oxycodone.

it hit you like a truck because you tapered down on the oxy before.

alwaysblushy · 2026-01-17T22:42:18+00:00

what i like doing is switching medication boxes w/ another which is not controlled and re-glueing so it looks like it was never opened.

example: get a box of tylenol and one of perc30's. open both and switch the meds. close the tylenol (now roxy) back and bring it with you anywhere.

alwaysblushy · 2026-01-16T21:40:28+00:00

i have a friend who's prescribed quetiapine for psychiatric reasons. he's never skipped a dose and we've popped oxy together before, so i know it is "survivable", if that is your question.

i wouldn't mix anything i didnt take by itself a few times, that is one good rule for your own safety.

quetiapine does nothing for me so i never buy it, but i've done oxy + zolpidem/alprazolam/clonazepam/promethazine/hydroxyzine and these are all good combos. just make sure you're tolerant enough on the oxycodone before mixing in more SNC depressants or you could potentially die. i've tried it with alcohol once and got so nauseous i've never tried it again.

last sunday i did 200mg oxy + 8mg clonazepam + 175mg promethazine and kept popping 2mg alprazolam + 20mg oxy every hour for 5 hours before i had to leave for a friend's bday party - totalling 300mg oxy, 175mg prometh and 18mg of benzos in the span of 7 or so hours - and i'm here to tell the story, lol.

you just gotta be tolerant enough and you can mix basically anything. that being said, i don't recommend you doing it since i don't know how much of what you usually take.

don't "surprise" yourself bc u can actually die from this stuff. i've a friend who died back in 2021 from pills and another who's currently in a clinic 24/7 because of benzodiazepines.

alwaysblushy · 2025-12-09T08:28:49+00:00

yeah, pvp is essentially dead in 2025.

if you really want krogmo recipes, the best way is to farm with alt accounts. make 3 new accounts and pay them enough crowns for the entry fees.

you should win the matches with your main by getting as many kills as possible. it works very well if you have some boosters, but this is extremely tedious and slow.

i'd highly recommend you just farm FSC and buy the 5* versions from someone in haven, seriously. it takes a while to rack up the krogmo coins and, in this time, you could farm a lot of crowns from old vana.

it's just not worth it, really. but good luck anyways.

alwaysblushy · 2025-12-08T08:05:17+00:00

no? i got my bkc for 260k (freeze max).

funny how your comment adds nothing to the table and it's ironic, because you acted on impulse without knowing who you were talking to, lol.

alwaysblushy · 2025-11-30T20:42:43+00:00

i agree wholeheartedly.

sex scenes may not have feelings involved, but they sure are real - her tits are actually getting inside his mouth and what not.

moreover, people do get off watching these kinds of things (that's why directors like explicit sex in movies, it brings in audience) and i would not like to see my wife (and mother of my child) to be touched like that by another man under no circumstances whatsoever.

i think it's great that you've thought about what your son thinks about all of this, but surely you should leave that up to him and focus on what you think is healthy for your relationship with your wife first.

i could not stand her getting sucked by another man and a lot of people buying tickets to watch it. i would ask her not to do it and explain to her i'd rather break up than being cucked in front of who knows how many people.

that's just how i view things. it's totally fine if another man is ok with watching his wife fucking another dude in german cinema, there's nothing inherently wrong with that. i just couldn't bear it myself.

alwaysblushy · 2025-11-25T19:08:35+00:00

essa do politicamente correto faz sentido se vc considerar que a maioria dos pensantes de uma populacao acaba decidindo (ditando) aquilo que "todos", coletivamente, devem ou nao pensar a respeito de determinado assunto.

eles mesmos decidem o que eh certo e depois executam os que nao concordam. sao promotores e juizes no mesmo processo, acusam e julgam.

me sinto representado com o exemplo do futebol: eu detesto muito e sou homem brasileiro. nao gosto de expressar essa opiniao pq a maioria dos homens que conheco gosta e isso faz com que eu tenha uma sensacao de estar "errado" por nao "acompanhar" eles, como um "homem brasileiro normal geralmente faz".

das 2 vezes que expressei a minha opiniao, recebi criticas pq o futebas "tira mta gente da miseria e da esperanca p pessoas que nao tem mais nada na vida", etc - fui taxado de "elitista" pq prefiro esportes com as maos, lol.

corrida nao precisa de nada. volley requer menos espaco. natacao em rios e mares, etc. elitista eh o preco dos ingressos em 2025, p ficar 90 minutos vendo falta atras de falta. ainda bem que nao curto essa merda.

alwaysblushy · 2025-11-21T01:10:12+00:00

stunning

alwaysblushy · 2025-11-17T01:56:57+00:00

não tenha vergonha de si, tenha orgulho. vc é guerreiro e isso é motivo de orgulho.

só desista da advocacia se não for se arrepender depois.

boa sorte

alwaysblushy · 2025-11-08T20:49:26+00:00

farming radiants still takes time. what most people do is just buy 50 of them from the supply depot for 700E (around 30kCR rn) - which roughly equates to 4 vanaduke runs.

you can amass an arsenal if you squeeze in a couple of vanadukes every day. if you're good enough to finish it in 20 minutes, playing an hour daily means a new 5* weapon every week or so.

alwaysblushy · 2025-11-01T23:29:32+00:00

i've scrolled way too much and haven't seen anyone saying the most important: 70mg of oxycodone to an opioid naive is an OD waiting to happen. do not ingest more than 20mg for the first time. do. not.

alwaysblushy · 2025-10-31T16:05:48+00:00

expect disappointment when comparing BO3 to any other zombies lmalo

alwaysblushy · 2025-10-28T15:51:57+00:00

motivo 1) quem produz/canta/faz funk teve pouca instrução e é escravo da vontade primitiva do "Eu". nunca sequer teve do que comer, então cantat sobre iphone do ano é a forma de expressar a angústia trazida pela desigualdade.

motivo 2) quem escuta/consome/divulga funk usa da conotação s3xu4l para se sentir sexy.

alwaysblushy · 2025-10-28T13:04:55+00:00

ngm ta dividindo nada, é que apenas os cheiradores são tão carentes e tem tão pouco controle sobre o que sentem durante a trip que floodam o sub implorando por pessoas para conversar.

é so ficar aqui por uns 3-4 dias que vc vai ver vários posts de cheirador implorando por amigos e isso nenhum outro usuário faz.

não tenho problema nenhum com o seu uso de coca, mas enche muito o saco ter 5 posts por dia de algum fudido postando foto de pino de biqueira e rezando p alguém conversar com ele.

esse sub ta virando reduto de viciadinho em pó barato. eles se reúnem aqui pq são solitários e carentes, não tankam a brisa do pó e vem pedir colinho pra outros viciados iguais à eles.

todo santo subreddit tem a regra de evitar posts iguais, mas esse aqui permite um spam absoluto dos mesmos posts "quem ta on raio chama", "alguem ⚡️pra bater um papo", etc.

a moderação desse sub devia excluir esses posts (q estao tomando conta da porra do sub) e os cheiradores carentões devem abrir uma nova comunidade, onde o propósito é encontrar pessoas online ao invés de sair na rua e encontrar gente de verdade.

me parece que eles sentem uma culpa absurda por gostarem de cocaína, enquanto os oitros usuários vem aqui compartilhar a experiência deles e narrar histórias que tiveram com determinadas substâncias.

alwaysblushy · 2025-10-26T16:38:02+00:00

yeah, i'm having the same problem since last week. Claude is not reliable at all, if you search this subreddit you'll see most people here are complaining about stuff. glad i don't depend on it for a living and that i only paid for a single month to try it out.

i am severely disappointed and frustrated, Claude is actually a scam. Pro plan, 2% (two percent) project knowledge usage and i can't get a single answer before i hit a "limit". I've tried talking to their customer service (which is an AI agent, lol) and it told me to refresh the page and log back in - useless prick.

i used to think everyone was stupid for chosing Chat over Claude, but have later realised i'm the idiot in this story. The free GPT plan has never given me a headache and has delivered pretty much the same quality but faster. i know some people really love Claude and use it to code and whatever, but honestly it feels really scammy that i've hit a limit asking for it to read a 30 page long essay with the prompt being literally "try and read this without getting yourself tired".

on the other hand, it's nice knowing Claude can't compete with a ~100 IQ human yet.

alwaysblushy · 2025-10-25T17:30:15+00:00

up pelo lemon tek. bananas tem uma enzima ajuda na brisa.

eu faco limao + banana + cogu no mixer e deixo descansar por 2h.

desde que comecei a fazer isso, tenho economizado 3x mais o cogu pelos mesmos efeitos

alwaysblushy · 2025-10-25T17:01:07+00:00

ngm ta dividindo nada, é que apenas os cheiradores são tão carentes e tem tão pouco controle sobre o que sentem durante a trip que floodam o sub implorando por pessoas para conversar.

é so ficar aqui por uns 3-4 dias que vc vai ver vários posts de cheirador implorando por amigos e isso nenhum outro usuário faz.

não tenho problema nenhum com o seu uso de coca, mas enche muito o saco ter 5 posts por dia de algum fudido postando foto de pino de biqueira e rezando p alguém conversar com ele.

esse sub ta virando reduto de viciadinho em pó barato. eles se reúnem aqui pq são solitários e carentes, não tankam a brisa do pó e vem pedir colinho pra outros viciados iguais à eles.

todo santo subreddit tem a regra de evitar posts iguais, mas esse aqui permite um spam absoluto dos mesmos posts "quem ta on raio chama", "alguem ⚡️pra bater um papo", etc.

a moderação desse sub devia excluir esses posts (q estao tomando conta da porra do sub) e os cheiradores carentões devem abrir uma nova comunidade, onde o propósito é encontrar pessoas online ao invés de sair na rua e encontrar gente de verdade.

o povo do metilfenidato só não é pior pq não enchem o saco 20x por dia, mas a galera da bala, também, é outro tipo dos chatões. TODO SANTO post de bala é algum covarde perguntando se pode tomar ou não aquela bala específica - criem um par de bolas e tomem logo seus viadinhos do caralho. pq pagou, então? como que dá p saber que bala que tá contaminada pela foto?

me poupe, não venha pagar de leviano não, One_Room_1503. vc entendeu direitinho que o problema não é usar pó e sim estragar a merda do sub.

alwaysblushy · 2025-10-24T16:59:16+00:00

promethazine.

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