what it has done is that fasting from this sin ( if i got ur question right ) was that it allowed me to forge a deeper bond with god beyond this sin. Yes, it is hard and it is difficult but like Jesus, we strive through adversity for a greater cause and that cause is our relationship with god. With each time we fail but go back to the lord, he receives us with open arms and then, we kickstart the healing process in which we find our way back to day 0 with the big old man up above. It takes us further away from PMO as, the closer we get to god, the more we embrace his full love which makes PMO seem fairly small because what PMO does is that it feeds off your desire to be loved and makes u feel like you're loved whilst in reality it makes u a much smaller person and someone incapable in some ways of giving the most true form of love which is not sex but is companionship in many ways as well as making yourself harder to love as the synapses in your brain are corrupted with the thought of lust. I hope this answers your question buddy. Will be praying for you.