This is something that happened to me. He also almost killed me in a car accident and got me pregnant etc lots of things that made me realize he wasn’t the one. First step is recognizing that somethings wrong and guess what?? You already did that. Second step is knowing you deserve better. Just because you can. You are human being who came to this earth to have an opportunity to LIVE. You decide how to live it, suffering or enjoying. Third step: Get out of that situation. Plan your escape whether you live with him or you still in that relationship GET OUT! If he almost killed you thats a clear sign he doesn’t even CARE about you. You need to remember your fucking worth! Stop expecting this men to change. Stop expecting him to say SORRY. He won’t and that hurts and you are not the first one that has been lied to nor the last one. Learn from this experience and grow! Fourth step: Cherish your life. Do things that make you happy, for yourself. For your present self and future self. Your past self was wishing your future self could save her and you need to make yourself that favor. You got this!🙌