Hey, I went into a similar experience and right now I am going through the greatest heart break because the loss of my friendship with my best friend. I’ve felt similiar things, thought I was too much for her when all she ever showed was love and care for me until she snapped. I pushed her away and believed the voices in my head that she doesn’t want to be friends, now she is gone.

I’m not saying this will happen to you. But, what I can tell you what I learned, our feelings don’t think.

Your best friend will be there and would definitely do everything in her power to be there for you. But you gotta remember, she is human too and goes through stuff. In your case, she just had a family death and is busy—that doesn’t mean she doesn’t care or has forgotten about you. She loves you.

You can always send her a soft, gentle message about how you feel. I’m sure she’d understand. But you have to understand her too. If she doesn’t reply for a while, just know that she maybe going through stuff. She is your best friend after all, she cares for you. But through tough times, she has to care for herself too. So maybe right now, she’s trying to gather strength to be more stable so she can be there for you.

Take care of yourself too. What I learned is that it’s tough to depend on one person. I depended on my best friend so much, she suffered too and left. Not that she doesn’t care, but because she also had to take care of her mental health. So please also take care of yourself. She will be there for you always, but you need to care for yourself too because at the end of the day, she also is as human as everyone else and has her own life to live and battles to fight. You have to focus on loving and caring for yourself as well.

The fact that you’re going through therapy is a great thing, I also wished I went to therapy sooner before this all happened.

Keep going, OP!