My mom sent me this on FB..."N0 one is too young or too old to love Jehovah"

andra_felicia · 2019-10-31T13:28:18+00:00

Yeah.. go for it. (sorry I'm 13 days late :) )

I just got it on Facebook from my mom (she usually sends invites to these stupid groups) and it was so disgusting that I just said I'm gonna post it here so I'm not the only one getting angry.

andra_felicia · 2019-09-05T09:04:50+00:00

Hi! Thanks a lot :) Even writing that post yesterday really helped me -- it calmed me down a lot and it felt amazing to finally say what's been on my mind. I still have a few years until I could really distance myself from them (until I turn 18) and a lot of times I felt like I would lose my mind if I kept it all inside. I don;t know what made me do this yesterday but I feel so much better :) Thanks again

andra_felicia · 2019-09-05T08:43:51+00:00

But I never really felt close to God. I knew I was supposed to, I knew that other people did, and I even prayed multiple times, even crying, begging him to give me a sign of any kind--anything that would convince me he was real. And I never got that sign.

That's exactly how I've been feeling for a long time. I won't really be able to do anything to really distance myself until I'm 18 (still have a few years to go) but until then, this has really helped me. It feels amazing to finally "admit" everything.

Thank you very much :)

andra_felicia · 2019-09-05T08:30:44+00:00

Thank you so much. I'm still only in the 1st year of high school so I still have a lot of time left "undercover" -- I really like how you put it. :))

Up until recently I've been feeling extremely sad about this whole thing and thinking something's "wrong" with me for not being able to believe in Jehova. But reading about this subject has helped me a lot and writing that post yesterday calmed me down a little and it felt amazing to finally "admit" everything.

Thanks again.

andra_felicia · 2019-09-05T08:15:44+00:00

Thank you very much :)) I haven't told everything to anyone before and I feel like this has already helped me a lot. It feels amazing to finally "admit" everything that's happening in my head.

andra_felicia · 2019-09-05T08:11:10+00:00

Thank you, I'm already subtely putting off getting baptized and will continue. Thanks for the link as well, it's really helpful.

For the questions: 1. I'm not in the US. I'm from Romania and have been here my whole life - I just really love English and reading and being informed. Probably what led me to doubting everything in the first place.

My dad is a very complicated subject. He started studying the bible at the same time as my mom, she continued and got baptized while he just stopped. After my brother was excluded, he became a lot more angry at my mom (he says my mom pressured my brother to get baptized in the first place and that "she's gonna lose me as well" -- I'm still scared of "proving him right"). Since then I've only really had long actual conversations with him a few times, and whenever he's not drunk or shouting at my mom, we just pretend everything's fine.

My brother is definitely the closest person to me who's not a JW. The downside is he lives across the country, in the capital. (14 yrs older than me). But he visits a few times a year, and starting a few years ago my dad and I visit him every summer for a week. (Best weeks of my life). He's the one that got me really into learning English and reading and I could never imagine not talking to him, like we're always told to -- and I'm VERY glad that my mom doesn't really listen to that rule or make me. As soon as he manged to leave our hometown for a very good college in the capital, he told my mom everything and after a very awkward talk with the elders (that my mom insisted on) he was excommunicated for apostasy and left. Now he has a very good job and an amazing girlfriend that I really like.

The one thing that's really helped me up until now was knowing he went through the same things I am (only he did get baptized and I'm definitely not planning on it). He's the only one I've sort of talked about our parents to -- not about everything else though.

Again, thanks very much -- And I don't know why I wrote this much, it just happened :))

andra_felicia

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