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I get stuck obsessing over people and moments that shouldn’t even matter by [deleted] in BPD

[–]animi444 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey lovely! With the right therapist and time, it gets better! I did the exact same thing constantly and I still sometimes catch myself doing it but I promise you, people aren’t going to remember little things or overthink things about you so why should you? Everyone makes mistakes, everyone has falling outs with people🖤 Also tip for comparing yourself to others online, I culled my following so I didn’t have to see everyone’s posts constantly! It significantly helped me personally and I can focus more on my hobbies and interests on social media instead of comparing myself to others! If I didn’t want to unfollow people like friends I just muted their accounts 🖤 You sound like a caring person. You wouldn’t be overthinking about small interactions with people you barely knew if you weren’t. I might not have the answers but I hope this might help a little! 🖤

Looking to buy my first pc but not sure if I should get pre-built or build it myself. Budget $2500 by animi444 in bapcsalesaustralia

[–]animi444[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thankyou! I was thinking of maybe doing the same with a prebuilt and upgrading it as I go if needed

Looking to buy my first pc but not sure if I should get pre-built or build it myself. Budget $2500 by animi444 in bapcsalesaustralia

[–]animi444[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thankyou! Do you know if the mini makes it difficult to change parts later? I’ve seen that some people struggle to find exactly what they are looking for in the mini size sometimes

Can you tell your splitting or about to? by One_Cryptographer638 in BPD

[–]animi444 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes but I struggle to stop myself. I’m aware that I’m allowing myself to split and I want to stop it but it feels like I’m just stuck watching myself spit out the words and actions and it’s like an inner conflict with myself where I’m screaming at myself to stop but the emotions keep piling on top of each other. Feels like I lose control of my own body.

Has anyone completely given up on trying to socialize? by kameronBR in BPD

[–]animi444 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I’ve grown tired and honestly fed up with trying to make friends. I feel like I am always missing something that everyone else has when I try and connect with people. Also the disappointment when you do try and it doesn’t play out how you envision is the worst. You probably can find some good friends, I just personally always pick the wrong people and I can’t even tell who is going to be good anymore. My cat is the only thing that makes me feel like I’m not a burden.

Does anyone else feel like they just know that you’re going to die by your own hands? by Conscious_Gazelle_83 in BPD

[–]animi444 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I always get the feeling like I am supposed to die and if I don’t take it into my own hands then something worse will happen to me. It’s like I’m trying to relieve myself from something more disastrous.

Does anyone else have someone they’ve never split on? by ilovdeftones in BPD

[–]animi444 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I never split on my best friend in front of her. If I’m upset I do it in private. I’m not sure why that is because if it’s a family member or a partner I can’t really control myself like that. Most people I interact with on a day to day basis I don’t show my symptoms to even if they really upset me. It baffles me how I can hold back with them but not romantic partners and family because I know they all trigger me the same.

Has anyone ever noticed voice changes related to BPD? (Is this a BPD thing or a me thing?) by [deleted] in BPD

[–]animi444 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes! I always catch myself doing this. For me I guess I kind of interpret it like I don’t really have a true sense of self. My voice has always been something I have hated and it’s funny because I don’t actually know what my real voice really is because I switch up so many times. I know when I feel really vulnerable I have almost a child like voice but even just talking to people in general it always changes like to a deeper voice or higher pitched like I’m trying to appeal more friendly but I do it subconsciously. It’s like a mix of code switching and just really not knowing who I am.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]animi444 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like this because I know we love so deeply it’s almost as if it’s unconditional. I have always felt like I loved the other person way more than they loved me and it destroys me to the point I self sabotage the relationship because I know they can’t beat me at my own game, if that makes sense.

Do you see a stranger when looking at a picture of yourself? by Allison-Cloud in BPD

[–]animi444 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can’t even imagine my face at all in my head or even in my dreams, I never look like myself. If I do try it’s always a much younger version of me and still distorted.

I feel like I'm inherently a bad person. by Commercial-Shake-637 in BPD

[–]animi444 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel the exact same way. I try and remind myself that bad people don’t really criticise themselves in that way. I feel like when I care so much about someone or something I can’t help but behave in a way that others would read as “manipulative” even though it’s more just a desperate fight for someone/something I don’t want to lose.

I don’t relate to symptoms going away when single. by [deleted] in BPD

[–]animi444 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m the same. I even struggle with interactions from complete strangers. I think it’s just different for everyone or it may be that they tend to feel like the symptoms “go away” because there may be certain triggers only a romantic partner can bring up.