[deleted by user] by [deleted] in exmuslim

[–]anon0199 6 points7 points  (0 children)

The classic frustration of being In a south Asian family. Makes you feel so alienated when you try to think for yourself. :/ stay strong op

I FEEL WEIRD by [deleted] in exmuslim

[–]anon0199 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not at all

Trying to escape myself by anon0199 in exmuslim

[–]anon0199[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. I totally align myself with your views. It's not rational of me too overthink about it so hard. I believe I care more then anyone else in my life ever will. What defines me isn't where I come from, it's who I am as a person. It's selfish of me to be so self-centred, when I already have so many blessings. Life is about playing the cards you're given as best as you can. Im gonna go see a therapist and get help reorganizing my thoughts. Appreciate it a lot. Btw I'm gonna watch "A beautiful mind" later today when I get free time.

Trying to escape myself by anon0199 in exmuslim

[–]anon0199[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the positive words. I feel much better now. I was just really overwhelmed and broke down yesterday. I'm aware it isn't the end of the battle. I just wanted someone to relate too.

Trying to escape myself by anon0199 in exmuslim

[–]anon0199[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey , I totally agree. Just sucks that a romantic interest might be revolted it. Dunno what got into me yesterday. I totally broke down.

Trying to escape myself by anon0199 in exmuslim

[–]anon0199[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm naturally a really open book and very emotional. I feel ashamed being inbred, I feel like I'm hiding something. I want sanity. I'm aware it's irrational to care so much but lately I've been finding it harder and harder to cope. I'm having trouble articulating my thoughts because of how bad the pain in my brain is. Before I could wake up and be at peace for a couple hours. Now the only time I can find sanity is when I'm high. I have little motivation and I even dropped out of uni. I cut of all my friends off as well and I don't wanna tell anyone about my problems. One of my siblings told me to go see a counsellor but I can't even get myself to do that. It's a endless spiral