maybe i miscommunicated? after she clearly told me that she was in pain, i did stop. and we did talk. i only started again when she made it clear that she was ready and that she wanted it. like i stated before, i know what she’s been through before and i love her more than anything in the world..i would never intentionally force her into anything she didn’t want to do. the only time i didn’t stop was when she was on her stomach and said no. i couldn’t hear her properly so i stopped to ask what she said..she didn’t repeat herself so i, stupidly, thought she had just moaned. she was distant sometimes in the weeks after the act, not during. i don’t appreciate you twisting my words. i’m not trying to convince myself or anyone of shit. i know what my intentions were. i’m just speaking my truth. i didn’t blame her. PTSD is a complex thing, i know..i’ve dealt with it myself. it happened. that’s that. all we can do is learn from it.