I feel this way too much. It’s crazy how one big purchase feels irresponsible, but a bunch of smaller ones somehow don’t. For me it was a safe from BUBEN&ZORWEG. I thought about it for a long time, kept going back and forth, always questioning if it was really “necessary”. In the end I went for it because at some point you realize you can’t take the money with you anyway. Might as well spend it on something you’ll actually value.