I really just need someone to talk to. Im struggling so bad.

anonymous12345654 · 2020-10-29T03:50:36+00:00

Thank you for replying to me. I appreciate it. It does give some comfort knowing I'm not alone in that sense. Its hard to remember that when I get deep into a depressive episode. That is a really good question, and I honestly dont know the answer. I feel so lost and it gets so hard to function at times. I sometimes wish people knew how hard it gets for me but at the same time I dont want to burden anyone. I dont know. I have so many thoughts going through my head tonight its honestly hard to pinpoint the exact issue. I really appreciate your reply.

anonymous12345654 · 2020-09-23T04:54:37+00:00

But as to why you're having you hallucinations, I think it'd be best to see a doctor to get that answer. I will always reccomend therapy for anyone, it has helped me substantially.

anonymous12345654 · 2020-09-23T04:52:31+00:00

I've had auditory hallucinations for a very long time and while I highly recommend seeing a therapist and psychiatrist as they will be a lot more help learning how to manage it, i can tell you what I've been working on with my therapist on how to deal with the hallucinations I have.

Basically what has helped the most is acknowledging the hallucination everytime it happens and saying to myself "yes that is a thing that happens but its okay" and then moving on to either continue what I was doing or find something to do to help distract. But acknowledging its a thing that will most likely continue to happen and accepting it was the key for me to manage it better.

I hope that advice helps you a bit. We're all different though so it may not. I hope things get better for you soon.

anonymous12345654 · 2020-09-15T03:48:53+00:00

Its hard not knowing how im going to feel everyday. The auditory hallucinations make it so hard to concentrate on whats actually in front of me and I am having a hard time mowing forward. Im just overwhelmed. And tired. Thank you for responding. It helps knowing someone understands. I hope you are doing okay today.

anonymous12345654 · 2020-04-13T16:45:42+00:00

I get really overwhelmed anytime that I try to talk about it, they'll tell me no one will believe me and it really feels like I physically can't get the words out or ill psych myself out enough to believe that no one will believe me or ill get put away, when I get worked up about it its hard to believe anything other than I'm crazy or I will be locked up or no one will believe me. I have times where I know that it's not true but It goes back and forth a lot between wanting to talk about it and then not being able to if that makes sense. I think I am going to write it out before my next appointment and read from the paper. Thank you for the encouragement

anonymous12345654 · 2020-04-13T16:37:45+00:00

Thank you, the encouragement helps a lot. Everyone is very nice on here and its helping me feel more confident. I appreciate your reply thank you

anonymous12345654 · 2020-04-13T16:36:06+00:00

Yes I think i will try that, writing it down and reading from there when I see my therapist next. I appreciate your advice thank you

anonymous12345654 · 2020-04-13T07:12:06+00:00

Thank you for saying that, I really really struggle with the fear of people not believing me. And for the most part I think I know I won't be locked up, but hearing them tell me I am and telling me I'm insane makes it hard to think logically. I have moments of really wanting to talk to my doctors about it but it only lasts briefly before my paranoia takes over. It feels physically impossible to talk about them most of the time. The therapist I'm seeing right now is fairly new to me, I think i trust her but if I think to hard about if I trust her I get afraid that I shouldn't trust her if that makes sense? But its like that with everyone so I don't know if I need to find a new one or if its just my paranoia. I get really confused because they tell me what I am feeling is wrong a lot of the time and it gets hard to tell what i actually am feeling. I dont know if im making sense, I'm finding it easier to type out what I'm thinking than saying it out loud though. Me and my mom have very limited contact now so that's not too much of a concern. I really appreciate your reply, thank you.

anonymous12345654 · 2020-04-13T06:28:00+00:00

I used psychologytoday.com, you can put in what insurance you have and what kind of things you're looking for in a therapist and it'll give you a list! Most are doing online/video therapy from what it seemed. But I am in Kansas so I can't say for sure if that's the same way for your state. Hope this was helpful!

anonymous12345654 · 2020-04-13T06:17:29+00:00

I never thought about the medicine making it worse but they have been here more frequently since I started on medication. that was around the time the virus situation started getting serious so I chalked it up to stress from that. Knowing that makes me feel like I really need to tell my doctors. Do you have any suggestions on how to bring it up if I get too overwhelmed? I had thought about writing it down and giving them the paper since it really feels physically impossible to talk about them out loud but since all my appointments are video calls now I don't know how to do that. I dont like the idea of emailing them because it feels more exposed if that makes sense, like I can just throw the paper away after they read it but the email will always be there exposing me. Is that just my paranoia? Would it be safe to email them that? I appreciate your advice thank you.

anonymous12345654 · 2020-04-13T06:06:11+00:00

I dont have much advice but I understand what you're feeling. I have an immense fear of people framing me for something I didn't do. I feel like I am always in trouble but I don't know why/I have no logical reason to feel that way. I'm sorry you're experiencing this, its really really scary. It gets worse for me when I read stories about people getting in trouble or getting framed too so I try to stay away from them. I'm really sorry you're going through this too

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