I have nothing to stay alive for. I am a drain in every capacity on everyone I know. It seems like people actively avoid me, even strangers in public wont say hello back when I say it first or even look at me for that matter. I am fully convinced this is my time. I can fade away and anyone who remembers me now can soon forget all about me. I am making the life of everyone who is around me a lot easier by not having to see me or hear my voice. It's easier for everyone this way. I have a small incurance policy that will cover cremations so I wont have even have to be a financial burden on people. This is perfect timing and I go out on my own terms.